This book will have a happy ending

Hey everyone,

Okay so really bad week last week including yesterday, last night I took my first 100 mg tablet of Lamictal and I swear today I already feel a difference in a good way and I am so so grateful. I read that 100 mg is the lowest dose to feel something on with depression and I feel better from yesterday for sure.

I do have two sisters and one brother with 11 nieces and nephews between them but I don't talk to my brother or one of my sisters that much as we are not that alike and I dont agree with some of the things they do.

Lisa you have a lot to look forward too if taking only one of these tablets has had an effect already :)

Hope you all having a nice Monday :)

Sean- I'm telling you. I believe we're climbing outta this hole we've been in. We may have scrapes and bruises and bloodied hands but I know we are climbing out!! While you're feeling good, don't forget to do & say nice things to yourself! Sometimes I forget when I'm feeling good.

Hi Karen!! I hope your day was pleasant and that you had a good appt w/your psychologist. I think storms are headed our way. It feels like a swamp/rain forest outside with the humidity! I'm very grateful for
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Love to all!

Lisa

I don't up my dose til Saturday. That dose will be 50mg. They started me out on 25mg for 2 weeks.

I'm wishing you a restorative sleep Sean! It's storming here. I love thunderstorms but my dogs- not so much lol.

Peace!

Lisa

yeah it is slow with lamictal. great med. i am now on 600mg and have come off 4 other meds!!! it kicks depression and bi-polar in the butt!!! well does a good job. i am a big fan. it, for me is subtle. feels it's like i haven't taken it at times. all the best.

am ok. miss my partner, but am ok. cheers. yeah building up takes a while with lamictal. there is a blood test to check your levels, but you already know this i guess. keep well.

Yeah sorry Jamie I forgot about that sorry.....never nice leaving someone you love I know. We are here for you :)

Hey Karen,

Today has been quite positive as it goes......I have been busy all day meeting friends and doing my duty getting the baby to sleep yet again ha.....I feel okay......I am worried that I may be addicted to Clonzepan even though I only take half a tablet usually a day for anxiety. I brought a pill cutter so I can cut them down slowly.

How are you Karen?

Hugs

Sean

Lisa, it can get scary when we have to leave our "safe" area. I go through the same thing every time I go to the doctor or shopping or anything, even to a friend's house that is only a mile away. I get so anxious before I have to go. Once I do leave, I feel better, but it is the anticipation of it I think for me.

Two of my doctors are over an hour each way. And I can't seem to hook them up on the same day. I wont be able to either, so I am going a lot now. The drive itself has became easier and doesn't seem to take as long, but I still get anxious. Though I do have to admit doing it actually easier, it is thinking about it that gets me. I try to stay busy up until it is time to go. And my dog has separation anxiety so when I leave she has a tantrum. It makes it that much more stressful.

I hope we both have an easier time with this.

Sean, I have been taking Xanax for over 20 years. My doctor is going to have me gradually get off of it. In face I have gone from 4mg a day to 1mg a day in a course of a few years. I imagine you are much younger than me, so you can take it awhile before the doctor will want you to go off of it. Your medication I mean. Try not to worry about it, that makes you all the more anxious. Just use it as you need it. And yes there is a huge difference in addiction and dependence. You don't abuse it so I wouldn't worry. I know eventually I will have to go that, and I think my doc wants me off of sleeping pills. But I am taking that one day at a time until it is time to decrease again. I am 55 so it is time to stop a few medications, and believe me, I take many. I have two pill boxes and some of the stuff I don't put in them. Actually in the back of my mind I worry what if I can't get my meds. But I have decided to cross that bridge when I get to it. One day at a time Sean. You may need more today, but you may not need any tomorrow. Take them sparingly, but don't let yourself suffer if the anxiety gets high. Eventually it will all even out and you will have more control. Have faith...

Hugs you guys...

Karen...

I don't have a mom anymore, but my husband can calm her down once I pull out of the yard. She is funny like that. She has a fit when I leave her at the groomers, but once they take her out and she sees the truck is gone, she is a perfect angel. Once she hears me come back, it is back to devil... But the anxiety of knowing she is going to get upset, upsets me. But when I am anxious, it effects her. vicious cycle....

I do listen to music when I go. I like the newer music, some of it. I always one to like new music. It does break up the trip as it is an hour each way.

Thanks for posting Jan. I hope you are feeling well today. I am up way too early, going back to bed soon...

Hugs, Karen...

I'm up too early too Karen. My normal time but, I didn't go to bed til 1am so 5 hrs sleep. Grrr.

Sean how're you so far today? I'm kinda feeling that yucky "dark cloud" feeling last evening and this morning. Kinda like slight DP/depression. I was hoping for smooth sailing but like you did Sean, I'm feeling a little backslide. I'm just on 25 Lamictal but Saturday I up to 50mg. Hopefully that's all this is and I'll be fine w/increased dose. I have felt really good for a abt 10 solid days since starting increased Pristiq and Lamictal not this past Saturday but the Saturday before.

Karen I wish you continued healing getting that pain med outta your system.

Turtle, wishing you comfort today too!

Have a good day friends!

Lisa

Hey everyone sorry I been out most of the day and I will be going out bowling with my cousins too soon.....I am soooooo tired lol

I think I am quite lucky I don't have that anxiety about going out places although I a few months ago when I was dating this girl who lived like 30 miles away so I did not go see her that much and we ended up splitting up ha...

I had to take a whole anxiety tablet last night as my stomach was really churning but I have not taken any today which is good.

Lisa sorry you are having a crappy day......try to stay strong and know that it is a blip although I am so aware how hard that is to do. I don't see what your doctor cant put you up 50 mg every two weeks instead of 25 as that is what mine has done and I felt good as soon as I hit 100 mg and I think you will too around that dose.

I used to have a little westie dog Karen but we had to get him a new home last year, I love dogs so much but I cant get one as I am living with parents for a bit but I will one day :)

Karen your dog story really cracked me up haha......dogs eat some pretty weird things lol

Lisa I hope you are having a better day today but if not then please remember that you are going to have loads and loads of good days :)

Happy turtle I hope you are doing okay?