Hate feeling this way

AV... Try to ignore the comments. People just don't understand depression. I don't see you as failed. I see a strong woman facing a lot right now. Where are you living now??? Did you find a place???

We are all very concerned. And we do understand what you are feeling. Take it one step at a time. Give yourself a break... You are a good person...

If you need medications to help you, so be it... .That is between you and the doctor. Not these people who are judging you.

Stay on top of your mental health. Do some deep breathing, practice mindfulness until you can see somebody.

You do have your kids. You are a family... Love them and let them love you too. They are there for you as you are there for them. They keep you grounded and make your life whole.

Just keep pushing on AV... You are doing a lot but I think you are very capable. Keep posting as it helps.

Hang in there. Hug your children and your kitties...

Hugs, Karen...

My family only knows about the arthritis, throat stuff, and fibromyalgia. I don't generally discuss my health issues with them or my friends. Remarks are stemming more from my being on disability than in regard to my health. I learned a long time ago that if someone has never experienced chronic pain then they can't fully understand the impact it has.

I'm in my same apartment. The ex's house deal wasn't completed by the first so I'm good for another month. I spoke to my landlord and he's willing to wait until the end of the month to get the rent. Hopefully, I'll be working in October and it won't be a big deal to handle it next month. I just don't like not having everything nailed down. When the ex moves the only furniture I will have will be what's in the kids rooms, cat furniture, and a couple desks but I have a roof over our heads.

Hi AV:

I'm sorry that you have so many worries going on and very little support all while being a Mom. You are not alone and you sound very strong. You're dealing with so much right now & you're still making it through each day and being the best Mom you can be to your kids. You sound so strong to me.

I know what it's like to have negative thoughts and have people put even more negative thoughts on you. Sometimes it's easier said than done to just ignore it because it's like it still gets in but sometimes you have to think about what is that persons motivation for saying negative things to you and sometimes once you think about it you'll realize that it's more an issue with that person than you.

I can't tell you how many times people have told me that if I would just go to church and pray that I wouldn't need any anti-depressants I've been told that since I was a teenager. Or my other favorite is if I would just go out more or have a drink sometimes I wouldn't be so depressed. You're so right when you say people can be judgmental. There's always been a lot of people who just don't understand mental illness so you really have to do what's best for you.

I know how it feels to worry when you don't have everything nailed down just like you want it but it seems like when we least expect it here's always a way that things get worked out. So sometimes we have to try to be patient and changed will happen. I'm also glad that you have a roof over your head and like Karen mentioned for furniture garage sales or good will are good places to look for furniture because people donate some good stuff to good will. There are also some cities or counties that have programs where if your income isn't over a certain amount you can qualify for a voucher that you can use to buy furniture or appliances. So there are always resources out there for you, especially when you have kids.

I hope you have a good night and I hope you feel better tomorrow and not feel as tired and have a better appetite. I'm sending hugs your way!

AV,
With all thats going on, you must try to give yourself some compassion. You are a good Mom. We all make mistakes in life, the important thing is to learn from them and grow stronger.

Try putting your right hand over your heart, skin to skin, breath slow, close your eyes and say, " I am a good person" " I am strong" It feels almost like giving yourself a hug.

Peace
Trina

Sorry AV,

I hope that things get better. I wouldn't pay anything on the math book, and I would make the kid's dad get the winter coats too. But that is me. If he is jerking you around about visitation, then jerk him around about the other stuff. It just seems so unfair.

If anybody deserves a day in bed, it is you. Maybe you should do it on days you don't have a lot to do, but don't do it all the time. It is a sign of depression. But sometimes we just need a little rest...

Hugs, Karen...