Losing it

im so close to losing it lately. This is my first Christmas without my parents and it's thrown my depression and anxiety completely out of whack. I've been so close to a breakdown. My family has always celebrated on Christmas Eve, but I discussed it with my therapist and we decided it best I not go, I just can't handle it right now. So of course I tell my sister and she immediately starts in with a guilt trip (using my parents) and then we just get into an argument because she just doesn't understand. She knows about my issues and then I'm having such a hard time.

My psychiatrist has recommended that I go for the IOP at Four Winds and my therapist agrees. I have an evaluation on the 30th and then I would start the 31th. My husband has been great. He's been very supportive and willing to do just about anything to make me happy. He family has also been great.

The IOP program is an intensive outpatient program. Basically you go 3 days a week for about 4 hours and it's only for a few weeks. While in the program they handle all your psychiatric care. Lots of therapy (including groups) along with a psychiatrist.

Welcome to the forum. What.

I have been through a few IOP's. I think it is a great idea. Plus there is nothing wrong with skipping a year of family holiday gatherings.

Siblings, especially older ones, tend to try and control other siblings. Took me decades to get so tired of that and realize it is not their call. My life my decision. Your life, your mental health, your choice!

Have a peaceful calm holiday with your husband and I wish you a healthy healing journey.

Keep posting, let us know how you are coming along.
Peace
Trina

That is right What, it is your life and you have to do what is right for you and deal with things your own way...

Take care of you... People have different personalities and all deal with things differently. Your life is just as important as anybody else...

Have a good day!!!

Hugs, Karen...