Getting worse

Always had depression even since I was like 14 when my mom split. But I recently got diagnosed with a condition and it has completely thrown me into a major downward spiral. I can't stop crying. I can't go to work or sleep. All I do is cry. I just can't get past the fact that I will have this condition forever and it's hard to deal with.

I can do this. The citalopram has been helping a lot. I like using a ssri instead of a anti depressant and using Xanax for my anxiety

Uc colitis. It's just so debilitating. It ruins your immune system so I'm always sick and it's a colon disease so it obviously messes with my stomach and my daily activities.

Thank you for support ❤️

Hi Cuke! Glad you found us. I've discovered that chronic illness is what I 'have' not who I 'am'. Learning this made a huge difference for me.

I was diagnosed with HSV II when I was 19 years old and thought my life was over. There was no suppressive therapy as there is today. This is a 'family' forum so I cannot go into details but the thoughts of 'who would want me?' and 'what about having children?' plagued me. It was about 4 years before I sought out a support group of others like myself. This made a huge difference for me. I did get married, I did have 2 children (by C-section for their safety).

As you can see by my 'signature', a lot more has happened over the years and I was declared disabled back in 2006. I hit an emotional brick wall and wound up in the emergency psych unit. This opened the door for 1 and 1/2 years of treatment with a psychiatrist and therapist. It was such an adjustment and a lot of the old questions had come back to haunt me...'who is gonna want me?' 'my life is over' 'I'm useless'. My therapist helped me change my perspective and thought process. The evidence? I'M STILL HERE!!!!!!!!

Keep coming. Keep posting.

CC. Welcome to the forum.

we do have colitus forum if you choose to check it out.

A lot of physcians believe that anxiety and depression is a causitive factor for colitus.

Are you seeing a therapist ? They help tremendously in organizing your emotions and thoughts, changing negatives into positives.

I suggest you work on emotional balance, since you are 19, horomones are still a a huge factor. Here is a list of some skills that may help in balancing some of your emotions, helping you identify them. Obtain a list of emotions from the internet and keep it close for reference.

Art, just start painting or coloring in colors that fit the way your feel. when done, review the piece and put emotions to the lines, colors or forms. make notes

Journal your thoughts in a book, helps to organize racing and looping thoughts. Negative thoughts and be challenged with positive truths.

Music, change your mood get out of your head, lift your mood

Keep posting here, we are here to listen and support. Learn skills from other people, it helps to know you are not alone.

Peace
Trina

Thank you guys for the support. Hahah I have heard of poo pour I recently actually and got turned on to it by my boyfriends mother who recently beat colon cancer and is kind of in the same boat along the lines of being best friends with the bathroom. The colitis and depression definitely goes hand and hand, I'm learning. It's nice to be able to talk to such helpful and understanding people who are going through the same things