My memory is escaping me.

So I apologize in advance for the incoherence of this post but I've steadily noticed my memory is getting cloudier by the day. Unless I make new experiences, any past memory, it could be as close as a few days before, becomes a blur and I can't feel the nuances, the tone, the joy that I felt during that day or memory. It is weird because this happens with things that I have recently done or experienced, as well as my most cherished past memories. I don't know if I can attribute this to the Lamictal. I could be vitamin deficient but my blood tests have come up normal aside from thyroid (should I request for doctors to test for specific deficiencies?).

I am having trouble finding words for things, my train of thought will just dissipate in mid air as I am speaking, and the other day I missed lab which is completely out of character for me. I had an exam that day which I finished early, and for some reason I forgot what time lab was. I thought I had a long break so I went to the store in-between but by the time I got back to school, lab was already over. I also get lost walking around corridors and hallways even though I have frequented them many times before.

I am too young for this to be happening. I hardly feel like doing anything anymore because all the color has been dulled and the haze is back. I've been fighting so long and now if it's not depression it's something different. I think I am getting depressed again because things that used to keep me going just don't seem worth it anymore. Everything just blends together. What can I do?

Post Edited (Reysone) : 6/4/2015 5:06:26 AM (GMT-6)

Yeah same problem here I recently tried to take my own life. I was saved by my partner but since I have found out I'm starting a new job and the local crisis team have finally given me an appointment to speak with someone in a weeks time. Anyway I'm the mean time I'm really struggling with the voices in my head flash backs visions hallucinations I feel like I might be slipping of the deep end only thing I can make out are the voices in my head as soon as I try to think clearly it's like walking in to fog myself and my partner having been arguing a lot which brought this all on and it's due to the fact that I apparently will do or say something I'm convinced I haven't said or done. Or he'll tell me things over and over and I just don't remember them. Its like he hasn't told me anything. I got really paranoid thinking he was trying to make me feel crazy but it's stated happening around friend's I'll rapidly change conversationsth at make no sense or have no relavence to each other or stop mid sentence and forget I was even talking. What is going on with me I'm obviously still extremely depressed the voices are putting me off going for this appointment and this new job on Monday I'm so frightened and so tired try I g to not listen to them. I'm looking back this time and it's amazing how many times this has happened before. If been convinced my whole life I'm a medium now I think I might actually just be crazy????

Reystone--You are under a lot of stress right now. Stress will do this to you. As an example, this past year has seen me making spelling mistakes galore. Forgetting in the moment how to spell a word, and not being able to figure it out. Now, in my defense, these are usually bigger words, and not easy ones. BUT, it does take me some time to come up with the right combination of letters. I wish I could think of a specific example right now but I can't.

I deal with this by taking a deep breath, and clearing my mind. When I return. I can usually fix the problem easily.

Be well.

Thanks for all your replies. I'm always in overdrive and my mind needs a break from time to time. I tend to forget that.

I am terrible with typing spellings and phone numbers and names even.
It's terrible and I feel awful if I go to walk and don't remember faces or ppl or my route.
It's scary feeling .
Anxiety can do that to you and so can depression.