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Posted 7/27/2015 1:12 AM (GMT 0)
Well here I am....My story hasn't changed much from my posts on other topics. Quick synopsis: I have been on lexapro 10 to 20 mg's back and forth in combination with clonazopram. Occassionally once switching to zoloft alone and augmenting with zoloft while weaning off of the clonazopram. 20 or 10mgs. of lexapro doesn't seem to make a positive difference. So I have been consistently on the lexapro 10 mgs. for at least 9 months with the augmenting of clonazopram. As mentioned before my depression does not lift much. It stays at mid depression and shifts down into hopeless depression, or irritable feelings. Never happy though. I continue to have quick panics that I breath my way through on occasion; mostly when I hear sirens or people from past traumatic experiences. I see a naturalpath who is 2 hours away; that tries to remedy with supplements with the knowledge of my Med prescriber; but none of that is helping -just the B12 (sort of like injections; but in pill form), which improves my energy a little.
So this past week I met with my med manager and we decided to see if the new supplements (Iodine, and folate again) would help. I only felt more depressed and irritable with just two doses, and fell into a hopeless state again with no energy. So I need to call and let him know then tell him that I became hopeless again this weekend. It comes and goes with no pattern.
Does anyone have any idea what could be going on with me and have suggestions for med's I could talk with my doctor about. I know he is going to ask me what I think we should do; because I am so sensitive to meds. But really all I want is to feel somewhat normal again and participate in life again.
At this point I can't work as I have now developed a panic about going to work sense my past abuse from my manager...over it but effected by it. One day I get the idea I want to get a job and start to feel excited about the prospect the next day I don't even want to think about it.
Trying to stay strong and not listen to the negative thoughts.
Karen thought abilify I think.

Post Edited (3Shadows) : 7/26/2015 9:22:24 PM (GMT-6)

Posted 7/27/2015 1:54 AM (GMT 0)
I'm so sorry you're struggling. I have been as well.

I haven't tried abilify, but have heard good things about it. It can't hurt to try I suppose.

I really hope you find something that works to help you feel better.

I'm here if you need to chat in detail. {{{{{hugs}}}}}
Posted 7/27/2015 2:12 AM (GMT 0)
Thanks Stacy....Wouldn't it be great. My son still keeps telling me to just get back onto the paxil. I am heading into that direction if the doctor will okay it. If it fails then I will try another avenue. I can't keep on like this. I feel like I am missing out on so much. Write to me.. I love hearing from you.
Posted 7/27/2015 2:32 AM (GMT 0)
3Shadows, so much of your story sounds like mine. Sensitive to just about all medications, medication resistant, overwhelming depression & anxiety, feeling hopeless after fighting so hard for so long with no improvement. Please know that you are not alone.
Posted 7/27/2015 3:05 AM (GMT 0)
You too other sideof 60. We are going to find our way. : )
Posted 7/27/2015 3:21 AM (GMT 0)
The summer came and is nearly gone here in New England; and I have done nothing nor wanted to nothing. I have a 16 1/2 year old daughter that needs her mom back. Life is marching forward and I need to find a way to march tot he beat of its drums : ) I have been doing extensive research on studies pertaining to AD's and crossing over; along with sequence preferences; and how each works. It is clear to me that the Paxil I took worked because it assisted several different pathways in my brain - helping with: depression, anxiety, OCD, panic, and PTSD to mention some. Lexapro only helps with anxiety and depression. But not mine. Zoloft is supposed to do the same thing as Paxil but it didn't help the depression as the paxil did. Supposedly only the Paxil causes the weight gain - but I gained weight with all of them; yet when looking back at photos I see I looked the healthiest and happiest when on the paxil and spent less time at the doctors. No giving up even when my thoughts tell me too. You neither othersideof60 : )
Posted 7/27/2015 10:47 AM (GMT 0)
Would you consider seeing a psychiatrist? They know a lot when it comes to medications. You may feel better after seeing one...

Hugs, Karen...

I hope you feel better soon...
Posted 7/27/2015 12:55 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks for that advice. I just researched and my med prescriber is a nurse practitioner and so not board certified either. He has been doing this work for years and is experienced; but I think you might be correct.
Posted 7/27/2015 1:58 PM (GMT 0)
I will write soon. I've been so down that I didn't want to bring you down. lol

I am calling my rheumy today to tell her I want to wean off of the Lyrica. I think it is causing my depression to worsen. It is a known side-effect.

Putting up with the nerve pain as it was before will be tough, but I think it's like choosing the lesser of two evils. I hurt anyway, so why not add back that hurt, and let go of some of the sadness.

The sadness, like you said, robs me of my life. I just don't want to do anything, and I even struggle to get dressed. Why, if I don't want to go anywhere? It's not fair to my family.

As always, I'm praying for you.
Posted 7/27/2015 3:24 PM (GMT 0)
Awww.....Stacey; I am beginning to wonder if it is the lexapro itself that has either pooped out or just doesn't work with our chemistry. I am taking Karen's advise and researching for psychiatrists in my area. I may have better luck. I am tired of just existing to go through the motions of life's chores and get no enjoyment out of life it self. I am rather certain the B12 is an issue with me; and maybe I did have this genetic disorder that requires the methylfolate; but if it only makes things worse for me presently then why take it and feel worse for now?

Since I have been on this lexapro I haven't even been to church really to speak of and vacillate from studying and praying too; among everything else.

Meaning I used to be such a prayer warrior and loved my spiritual life - now if I think of anything to do with prayer, church, etc. I quickly dismiss it. something is very wrong.

I will try....to pray for you and even myself.
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