Im 18 years old and my anxiety and phobias have made me very depressed lately. I cry about
10-20 times a day, and thats when i can eat. i have about
13 days without eating solid food, got a recent phobia of choking when i eat. I used to get dressed up everyday, do my hair and make up and wear pretty dresses but now i look like a zombie in sweats. I havent been able to attend school because i dont have the energy to be on the bus. As of now I dont even have the energy to shower to be honest. To this point i think I need professional help. I called to set up an appointment with a therapist but i wont be seen for another 2 weeks
My entire family thinks im going crazy and seriously no one understands me. My friends have even abandoned and left me because they think im a lost cause and am doing this all for attention and self pity. I feel so alone and I've gotten weird thoughts about
burning and cutting myself. I just see no reason for me to go to the emergency room even though i feel weak and dehydrated. Its not like they can do much for me. I feel hopeless rn, actually crying as I write this. I just want to feel like theres a chance i can go back to being the person i was before i got all these issues. I cant be alone, i know there are other people who feel the same way i do. My best wishes for you all
