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Posted 7/5/2016 8:50 PM (GMT 0)
Even when you get Depression under control with Meds, the Big Black Dog of depression is always lurking around. The security of my bank account has been compromised. Over $6,000 of fraudulent charges. The sent me into a full blown Panic Attack. I haven't had one of those in over 15 years. Wow forgot what a hot little mess those make me. Thankfully I found some old Xanax. Even though the shelf live expired years ago, it still knocked away the Panic Attack.

Whew what a day. Panic Attack over and Bank Fraud taken care of.

Just wanted to point out it curse will always be there for us.
Posted 7/5/2016 10:57 PM (GMT 0)
Oy - I know the feeling.

My dad died in December a couple of years ago, and my wife and spent a lot of time zooming between our city and the one my parents lived in. We weren't paying any attention to our credit cards, and just paid them assuming that everything was fine. A few months later, we were going through all the crap that had been piling up and wondered why we were paying for groceries at Win Dixie in FLA when we live in Canada.

The good folks at MasterCard said they would reverse everything, and apologized profusely. Then I remember thinking to myself "How shi77y is somebody's life if they're buying groceries at Win Dixie in FLA with a stolen credit card?"

Kinda hoped whoever it was got away with it.

Glad you're calm. :)
Posted 7/5/2016 11:32 PM (GMT 0)
I had a panic attack about a week ago. I hadn't had one for about 5 years. It certainly remindered me that it still can grab me. I was fine after a half-hour and 20mg of valium.

Derwood
Posted 7/6/2016 11:30 PM (GMT 0)
Valium...nice. Wish I had some of those for my Neuropathy pain. That would help a LOT.
Posted 7/6/2016 11:37 PM (GMT 0)
Happened to BF about 5 years ago. It sounds like you caught it and you have done what you needed to do and your bank is doing their job. So, the worst part is over.

Like everything else, there are good days and bad and in-between. Remember this when you get the karmic great day where you feel great.

Try making that ole black doggie your friend. Offer him some treats and obedience classes.
Posted 7/6/2016 11:43 PM (GMT 0)

Myself 09 said...
Happened to BF about 5 years ago. It sounds like you caught it and you have done what you needed to do and your bank is doing their job. So, the worst part is over.

Like everything else, there are good days and bad and in-between. Remember this when you get the karmic great day where you feel great.

Try making that ole black doggie your friend. Offer him some treats and obedience classes.

Thankfully most of my days now are the karmic days. My depression has been mostly under control with meds for several years. The combination of meds changes, but my Doc has learned pretty well how my moving target works.

Coincidentally, I have a Big Black Dog, or he will be Big. A Black Lab pup. He's gonna be a monster when grown. Laying at my feet now quietly looking at me for his next treat.
Posted 7/7/2016 5:02 PM (GMT 0)
Sporty,

I call my depression the 'monster'.

I did have our bank account ravaged back in late 80's before known depression. Didn't talk for 3 days after it was settled. Found the person too!

In the past fives years, along with the medication, I have found that drawing and/or painting the monster is emotionally healthy for me.

Also I journal alot, monster tends to showup on the pages and in margins.

www.mindful.org is my fav website for mindfulness and tricks to use daily skills for calmness, stay in reality and not catastrophize. Mindfulness and meditation, not the 'om' kind, keep my fequent painic attacks at bay.

Glad you are feeling better.

Peace
Trina
Posted 7/9/2016 8:28 PM (GMT 0)
Oh, ya'll peeps don't worry about me. I was only sharing that the Big Black Dog, or monster, or whatever "pet name" you have for this crap is always there with us.

Turned out my bank was not completely truthful with me on Tuesday, when this initially happened. Yesterday morning, I discovered thousands of dollars they promised me would never hit my account did hit my account.

No panic attack, not even an emotion in the direction of a panic. I was justifiably infuriated and in a Rage. This was further compounded by my profession being an accountant. So, I spent about 6 hours once again speaking to my bank. Except this time there was a hell of a lot of colorful language, voice levels with decibel level FAR above shouting. It was actually entertaining. I have better knowledge of accounting systems and computer programing that those high level bank exec guys.

I totally humiliated several of them. LOL Now, I'm absolutely certain the problem is solved. Why you ask? I insisted that one of those jerks stay on the phone with me as I walked him through the corrections to my bank account while I was watching it happen in real time on my laptop. Muuuyhahaha

Anyway, that panic attack on Tuesday was just a one time thing. BUT, a reminder this crap is always with us.
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