Posted 3/14/2018 2:10 PM (GMT 0)
Hello all
Hope you enjoy the new car Myself, and that everyone's gardens thrive
I'm struggling today. Woke up in an awfully low mood and when I got into work it sunk even lower and I just felt like bursting into tears and going home. I've stuck it out for the day though as I know going home doesn't really help and being in work gives me something to focus on.
I'm not sure whether it's my fault or not. I was not doing too bad yesterday afternoon, mood at maybe 3/10 which is pretty good for me at the moment, but then I started reading about IBD online and getting a bit anxious. I knew I shouldn't start looking into it as there is no point, but I've got tests coming back next week for inflammation in my bowel and I don't know what to hope for really. My colon is so painful but my inflammation was checked thoroughly a couple of years ago and they said IBD was highly unlikely given the biopsy. Anyway, not long after I'd read that, my mood just tanked. Nausea came on. So yeah, I'm really trying to stop the Googling.
Oh and my Auntie is in hospital in intensive care. She ruptured her esophagus and then stuff leaked inside and gave her a bad infection. She has survived a couple of days so her odds are getting better that she'll recover. When my dad called me though, he started by saying "I've got some bad news" and I was like, oh no it's mum, or it's my brother, but thankfully they're fine. I think it has shaken me a bit though.
Very glad I'm seeing my therapist tonight.
I'm day 13 of Cymbalta, and I guess still too early to judge whether it will help lift the depression. I really hope it does and that in a couple of weeks I feel the difference.