I'm scared of my own thoughts

 My recent thoughts are making me scared of my own self.  I'm not obcessing on it just like a passing thought. Passed a few times yesterday and today.  Should I be concerned with myself having that type of passing thoughts.  I feel so useless and just a burden on my family.  I am unable to work anymore due to my short term memory loss and constant fog that I live in.  My hubby took a huge pay cut after Katrina.  So I was going to work part time to

help out with making ends meet.  Well instead of helping all I can do is make more medical and medication bills.  I may be able to work one to two days a week.  My co-pay for my 12 meds are over $300. a month. I even filed SS Disability in April.  I don't know what to do anymore.<sigh>

I suffer with depression, fibromyalgia, diabetes, high blood pressure, heart disease, hyperthyroidism, insomnia, post menapausal. <sp>

Other than that I am in shape for the shape I'm in.  Please shed some light on this for me.....should I be worried of those thoughts?

~Kathy 

Hi kathy,  I am sorry but I have had to edit your post due to forum rules and regulations # 1. no discussion of threats of suicide or self-injury, or threatened or intended physical harm.  We have many children and teenagers that post on this forum and wouldn't want something we post to influence them in anyway.  Please do understand. I am posting some suicide hotlines and website for you to utilize if you need to. Thank you - Elisha

http://suicidehotlines.com/

http://suicide.com/suicidecrisiscenter/

http://suicidal.com/depressionandsuicide/

Post Edited By Moderator (els) : 6/26/2006 3:47:02 AM (GMT-6)

Thanks, Honehe. I appreciate your caring.

Thanks Judi. I don't share that with family members. I haven't seen my therapist in nearly 2 months due to our insurance change. I guess I will just make another bill and go to see her. I am really down this evening. Hubby keeps asking me what's wrong? I just say I am just feeling down a bit I guess.