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Posted 6/26/2006 6:34 AM (GMT 0)
Hello Everyone!  I got to work on time today and just logged on.  I am not the everyday reader/poster for this site-but you are always on my mind.  Since my last post things have gotten worse.

I just found out my job is not being extended past Aug. this year.  My job is the one thing I feel makes me happy.  Now when I come into work I think to myself "I am only going to be needed for another month and a half.  This is one of the last days I'll be sitting at my desk.  Boy, did I just waste $350.00 on more work clothes that I am not going to need anymore? ETC...."  I feel like everyone is starting to let go of the idea of still being my friend after I leave here.  They are already keeping a distance as to not get to involved with me.  Like if they stay away they won't miss me as bad when I leave.  I know I am going to miss them. 

My husband keeps asking me "What are we going to do?"  I don't have the answers for him. 

I have not been out with the "boyfriend" in over 3 weeks now. He does still call and we text message.  What usually happens is one of us ticks the other one off-and we hang up on each other. High school BS if you ask me. 

My depression meds work fine, but I am in a cloud most of time.  I find it's hard to care about anything too deeply.  I am usually an outgoing person and now I just want to be left alone.  I didn't go anywhere this weekend.  I basically did housework, played some internet games, and watched tv.

I'm hoping things get better real soon. krocks

Posted 6/26/2006 7:46 AM (GMT 0)
hi krocks,

I'm sorry t o hear this about your job. but don't worry all is not ost. I would suggest to go back to school and get masters degree or what ever you want. after doing this could increase your chances of getting a job.
Posted 6/26/2006 8:06 AM (GMT 0)
Akram- Thanks, It's like you can read my mind.  I'm an RN now, but thinking of going for a bachelor's in that.  I'll be a BSRN when finished with school.  Or maybe go into anesthesiology.  School is getting harder for me, I'm in my mid 30's and I dread the thought of cracking the books open again.  Jobs here right now are scarce.  I'm in Germany because my hubby is in the military.  I don't speak fluent German, so I have to depend on the Goverment(GS) system for my employment.  If I don't get hired in one of the other clinics 20 mins-2 hrs. away-I may have to work as a cashier at the PX (store) or Taco Bell here on post.  Wish me luck! krocks

Posted 6/26/2006 9:50 AM (GMT 0)
krocks,
I wish for you and your hubby the best of luck, and i also understand the feeling after 30 that you don't want to open books, I'm also 33 and didn't do masers but I take few courses here and their.

German is a barrier, what i think you can do is enroll yourself into german courses, how about that. learning a new language can be fun and it will help you to communicate with germans. but also you might feel that this is a lot of trouble and that you might leave germany if your husbend gets sent back to US. hmm you can come back to germany as a tourest :) or meet german people in US! u don't know what could happen lol.
what's RM is it some sort of degree? 2 year degree perhaps?
Posted 6/27/2006 8:43 AM (GMT 0)
R N registered nurse. I think when the 2 letters are close together you saw R M. Who knows -I may even go into a field that is totally different. I have learned enough German to get me the correct food I want from the menu,and assistance with a purchase at the mall. Most of the Germans speak English. The ones that are 45 and younger. The older ones weren't taught it in school. If you try to speak their language they respect you and start speaking to you in Engkish. Deep down they want to practice their English. Most of them tell me that their English is not so good, then they talk better than you or I. Keep in touch AKRAM
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