Els, you are right that we have all been through a lot. I am still unravelling the layers of where I have been and how it effects me today (aren't we all?). I think that reaching out to others is one of the best ways to overcome our own struggles. It is tough enough to deal with our own "stuff" but doing it, while running a message board must be a lot of work. I have mentioned before that my depression first attacked at a time when there was very little understanding and no resource like this to turn to. What you do here makes a difference, a HUGE difference. We are all in this together but we wouldn't be here without you having taken the step to be the moderator. It is okay for you to feel good about that and let us say thank you.
Chuckles - Trust is a tenuous thing sometimes. I am so sorry that you have had your trust betrayed but so proud of you for not giving up. Continue to seek your own truth and know that there are good people in the world, sometimes it takes a bit of energy to find them.