Starting meds today

Hi, I am fighting a major depression right now. I have never felt this bad in my life. I was actually thinking about suicide. I know that is awful, but it gets so bad in my head that I couldn't deal with it. I went to the doc today, thanks to my husband, and am now on meds. I know they can take awhile to kick in so I'm trying to find support all around and help keep me together.
I have a wonderful husband and three beautiful children and I hate that I would even consider leaving them. I have been trying to keep these thoughts of doom and gloom out of my head, but they have a way of creeping back in. I am now wondering if the meds will even work, or will I still have thoughts like this anyway.

Hi Suzy,

Welcome to HW! I first came here to help make sure I had a support system around me -- and it has been *such* a support system: I really hope it helps you as much as it has done me! :)

Yes, meds can take a while to kick in, and up to 12 weeks to have full effect (though you should notice big improvements way before that!). Occasionally people find that the med they have been put on doesn't work for them, but more often than not people find them really helpful (and as with anything, we tend to hear about the failure stories with meds more than the success stories simply because successes don't cause enough worry for people to speak up!).

Allow yourself to be hopeful -- and give yourself a break: this is an incredibly different time and your usual thought patterns have been disrupted -- and it's not unusual for that to impact on how you feel about your relationships. With meds you will soon start to regain your balance and, with it, your true outlook on your family.

In the meantime, big hugs to you.

Rosie x

Hi!

I'm new as well, and I understand the doom and gloom outlook. Remember-you are SO NOT ALONE! There are so mnay people out there with depression, and while we are fortunate to have found help, and this support forum, there are people out there who haven't found help.

Look at things the way I do-your husband loves you, and will support you through this bump in the road. You have 3 children, who no doubt adore you, and that's what makes you special and worth everything!

Give the medication a chance to work-I just started Lexapro on Tuesday, and while I'm a little tired, and feel kind of strange-I know that means they are working to make me well. I am looking forward to that light that I can see at the end of the tunnel. I would like to hear your progress, as it is important to let us know how you are-now that you're here, we care.

(((((BIG HUGS!)))))

Mamaof4

The meds do work. It takes a little time.  You will slowly start getting better. Keep in contact with your Doctor. You may have to up the dose. Most people do. Only up the dose after first talking your DR.  I know how you feel 2 years ago I was in a major depression after I had my 4th child.  It was a time when I should have been happy everything was going good for me. You will get better. If you have bad thought talk to your husband or a friend. Don't do this alone. Remember the pills do work. Hope you feel better. Hang in there.