Keep getting dragged back to my past

Oooops, sorry Victoria, didn't mean to, was generally just having a bad day.  Apologies again,

Sar

Hi Saeharr, may I ask what kind of courses have you been taking? and what kind of job or interviews have you been going too?  Do the people who are interviewing you know of your background?

I had a very rough childhood ( I dont know if you have read any of my prior posts on it ) but I have had depression, anxiety/panic attacks and PTSD for most of my life.  I went straight on to get my BS in Psychology right out of high school and went to work for a private mental health care facility which I stayed with for many years.  I am working on my master's now and mostly finished with it.  Eventually, my employers knew of my depression and anxiety but it was a close knit environment and they were supportive of me regarding it.  Which I was thankful for.  However, I did have other part-time jobs while I was employed there too and never did I let on that I had any sort of illness as this just wasnt their business to know.  And it does set you up for them to discriminate against you even though it is against the law it is difficult to prove this is why they didnt hire you.

It sounds like you have been working hard to better yourself.  I agree with Shy that you most certianly have "the will of a warrior".  Perhaps look into an antidepressant if you think it would help.  If not then dont it is always up to you.  But do keep your head up and keep your pride.  No one is perfect and dont ever let anyone judge and if you feel they are judging you dont let them know that they are getting to you.  This is what they want...to get a reaction out of you.  Keep your cool, mostly when your in a job interview.  The right one will come along...you will see. 

'Now,I didnt see if you were currently on meds now?'   No, i haven't been since 1999, came off everything as soon as i found out i was pregnant.  There have been a couple of times since then when i've ordered some from the doctor, but i only take them for a few days and then think, no i've been off them this long.

'It is very important (as I am sure you know) that you keep yourself healthy for your son.'   My mum has him over one night a week so i can get a good nights sleep, which is so lovely of her, i prefer that to residential respite care, can relax more when he's with my mum.  It allows me and my partner time to go out and do something together once a week, which is priceless, especially if my son's been getting up during the night all week.  The only problem i tend to find is finding the energy to get up and go out to do something!

'what kind of courses have you been taking? and what kind of job or interviews have you been going too?  Do the people who are interviewing you know of your background?'   I'm on a 4 year occupational therapy degree course, i'm doing it part time so i can still be there to take care of my son.  I went to the local hospital to try and get an occupational therapy assistant job part time.  Unfortunately they have to know everything about your background, and you can't hide anything because they get a doctors report and have the right to look into your doctors notes.

'I have had depression, anxiety/panic attacks and PTSD for most of my life.  I went straight on to get my BS in Psychology right out of high school and went to work for a private mental health care facility which I stayed with for many years.  I am working on my master's now and mostly finished with it.'   That is fantastic, it's so much more of an achievement when you've had to get through so much along the way too.  Wishing you all the best on your masters course, it's a lot of work but it's all worth it in the end ....

'Keep your cool, mostly when your in a job interview. '   I kept my cool up until she said she was sending me off to see the psychiatrist because i had such a vast history!  It was 8 - 9 years ago and they're still dragging me in to see some doctor who will look at half an hour of my 29 year life to assess my suitability for the job!  Yes i'm still sore about it!  I said to the lady there, it wouldn't matter if i was 80 years old, they'd still drag it up!  I feel especially sore about it because the last doctor i had was so condescending, and you have no choice but to sit there and take it.  It is insulting....

Hopefully it'll go alright in two weeks time, if not i'll just have to keep applying for jobs until someone gives me the chance.  Was lovely to hear from you, thank you for reading and responding to my post, that's lovely,

Best Wishes,

Sarah x

Hi Elisha,

I am assuming that you dont live in the US?  No I live in the UK, although first opportunity and i'll be emigrating somewhere else! 

all your healthcare records are secured unless you sign a release for information to a certian individual or provider    That's the same system here, which in theory means you can withold your records, but then in practice you're not very likely to get the job, so really you don't have a choice but to sign them over!  It's a no win situation either way.  Although saying that my University accepted me, so hopefully the hospital will to....

Dont let someone sitting behind a desk look down on you from just what they read on a piece of paper.  Your more then just a name on a folder in a chart somewhere...remember that.    I'll do my best!  It depends how confident i'm feeling that day and what questions get thrown at me!  But you're right, i am more than a name on a folder, or a number on a file, it's trying to convey who i am in the limited amount of time they give you, and the limited questions they ask you    You never know, it may not be as bad as i'm expecting it to be, although judging by the last guy i got i'm bracing myself!!!!

Best Wishes,

Sarah x