Feel like giving up

Kerry
Welcome to the board,I am glad you found us and you will find there are alot of people that have been through similar episodes as to what you are going through,on this board and many have great advice.
My advice is simple.
Find a different doctor.
It is common knowledge that depression hurts. My doctor actually prescribed me tylenol 3 with codine along with my anti depressants. He understood that I was in physical and emotional pain.
I had been through several doctors before I found him,one even tried to get me to go to organic food,and use herbal remedies. By the time I had finally picked myself up and forced myself to go to the doctor I was way beyond a herbal remedy.
Don't give up hope Kerry,you will find someone that helps you,just have patience and know that you are worth it. This is probably one of the hardest things you are going to go through,but you can do it.
People with depression are probably the strongest people there are,as we have to endure so much.
"Normal" people would crack.
Please keep us updated on your progress.
Take Care

Hi Kerry, We are glad that you have found us here and have posted.  The things you describe in your post (physicial illness, isolation, being lonely) are typical causes of depression and can also make depression much worse.  Most Primary Care Physicians are reluctant to prescribe antidepressants as these type of medications require close follow up, sometimes adjustments and or changes, and can be expensive.  ShynSassy has a good point in finding a new physician but I would perhaps look into maybe seeking out a psychiatrist for this as they are the type of physician who should be prescribing these types of medications in the first place.  If this isnt an option for you for whatever reason then...you can go online and Google "Depression Questionaire" and fill one out (there are many to choose from), print that to take to your next doctors appointment.  It will score your depression level and hopefully that will be something that you PCP will not ignore.

Please do continue to post as this is a wonderful site for information and support.  Everyone here is so very wonderful and helpful...Take care

Kerry, I find it very surprising that your doctor would fill out a depression questionaire and should it come out that you are indeed depressed ignore it.  That is terrible!  If your doctor doesnt want to do anything for you then you can call their office and ask for a referral to a Psychiatrist.  I would seriously doubt they would say "no".  If they do then find one on your own.  There is nothing wrong with seeing a psychiatrist...they would assess you for depression, form a diagnosis and treat it if necessary. 

You dont work for your doctors...they work for you.

 I agree...I think you could get better help and better friends.A true friend would still come visit.I'm kind of alone in my struggle right now also.It helps to know people are here for you...

Take care,please

Hi, Kerry.

You are not alone. YOu have described me to a tee. At this moment, I'm suffering with tonsillitis x 2 weeks, had been awaiting gallbladder surgery which was cancelled due to the tonsillitis. Since I had my daughter, 17 years ago, I'm be beseiged with frequent viruses, iinfections, ects. fatigue, episodic dpression. I've seen many doctors over the years. My test results are all normal. I always say I look awfully good on paper. As soon as I get past the tonsillitis and gallbladder surgery, godwilling, I'm planniing to see a rheumatologist to explore autoimmune diseases/ fibromyalgia/chronic fatigue. I'm not sure what they can do for any of these anyway, but I'd like to begin the exploration and hopefully a path to wellness.

I truly understand how you're feeling. I cry a lot at this point. I've had to adjust my work schedule, and now I'm going to be taking my 3rd week off due to illness. It's hard to explain to people. I often hear, "You're sick again?" I hate it and find it so embarrassing. Yet, I know it's not my fault. I'd like nothing more than to feel normal and live a productive, happy life. I'm so very sad and scared much of the time these days. Without these health issues, my life would be good - a wonderful husband, 2 great teenaged kids, a rewarding job, friends. And yet, I'm so miserable because I feel so terrible all the time. Good luck to you, Kerry. Please write back. It would help me to be in touch with someone who shares my struggle.

BethEllen

BethEllen I know exactly how you feel. Before i started getting sick all the time i was a full time student in my 3rd year at university, i worked part time and i was out having fun with friends. I was a very happy person. I understand how you feel when people at work don't understand you have to take time of due to illness again, i got let go from my job because i was taking so much time off. It's good to know i am not alone in feeling like this and if you want to talk some more my details are in the bar on the left side.

Kerry x

Hi Kerry - I had to edit your mail address from your post as non-members can access these posts but only members can access your details in the control panel to the left side of your post.  If you put your details into the control panel members only can access them and not anyone else.

 

Post Edited By Moderator (Victoria) : 1/22/2007 11:00:46 AM (GMT-7)