New Member Stay at Home Mom

There are many who can relate to you here and I am sure they will be along shortly to post replies to you.  I hope you find HW a comfortable place where you can share your thoughts and feelings...keep posting it does help.  Take care.

I am a SAHM only because I am disabled with depression and cant work right now.  However, I can relate exactly with what you are saying!  My youngest is 6 and he is so full of life.  Now that is is getting warm outside I feel guilty because I am home all day, usually doing nothing but moping and when he gets home he wants to play outside.

Of course, you would think that I worked my butt off all day because all I do is yawn and can't wait until it is bedtime.  I feel so bad and wish I could provide so much more time for my son.  He always asks me, hey mommy if you are not sick today when i get home can we go out and play?  This breaks my heart!

I know what you are saying and what makes it worse for me is that I usually don't even have enough money to survive on so I worry about that as well.

This is a great site, alot of caring people.

We are glad to be able to be here for you.  I see you stated in your last post that your husband does not believe in depression.  My first husband did not either and it made my life hell!!  I know this is kind of personal but I wonder how healthy your relationship is with your husband.  I am asking for an answer I just want to let you know from my experience and counseling.  This can be a very damaging issue to your mental health.  As I stated, it is non our business what is going on with you in that respect the only thing I ask is that you investigate ways to keep yourself healthy!  It is so detrimental when your most loved persons are against you or have no interest in what you are going through.  It makes the loneliness so much more overwhelming.  Would he be interested in learning about what you go through?

I don't know if this is good advice for you or not but I recommended it to another member what I did for my situation.  I made my s/o aware of this site and what it offered me.  He did not live with me so he could access my posts whenever he wanted to understand something that was happening in our life.  This worked great for me for 2 reasons:  1) it gave him a forum in which he could actually (spy) or as I call it, stay in touch with what I am feeling.  He understood that this is a forum for me to talk out things that he doesn't understand or a forum in which I was more comfortable consulting because of the comrodery we have here.  2) It built a level of trust for both of us because he understood that there are people just like me that are going through similar issues at different degrees.  It gave him a greater understanding into what depression is and any disbelief he had he soon realized that hey this stuff is for real!

To use this advice you have to be comfortable with actually expressing how you feel so as not to curtail what the purpose of this forum is!

Hang tough, we are here