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Posted 7/15/2007 6:38 AM (GMT 0)
as each day has been going on i feel more parinoid that everbody hates me and that im useless i cry often and tke paxcil and effexor and clonzapan just to get thru the days and at times to sleep im on seriquil i know im failing in my fight somedays i wish i wasnt really alive of dead just numb and not interacting at all my friend tells me to go to a clinc but why should i take a persons place that is worse shape then me and more derserving.  I dont post here much as all you have more troubles then me i just needed to say something before i want my mind just to lock itself away.
Posted 7/15/2007 9:12 AM (GMT 0)

Hi there Destroyer,

Your problems are just as important to us as anyone elses. We are all on a level playing field here. I think, like your friend, that you should consider therapy as a form of healing. Have you talked to your doctor about this at all? If you are taking Paxil, Effexor AND Clonzapan and you are feeling like this then I would also discuss changing your meds with your doctor. Zoloft is a good drug that has a good following here on HW, so that might be one to consider. (Unless you already have!) I am really sorry that you are feeling like this at the moment, but with the right help, you can feel just as good as anyone else. Gentle exercise is my recommendation. Walking the dog etc... Something that gets you out of the house. It gets your blood pumping (Which in turn circulates more oxygen) and you also get Vitamin D from sunlight!

Let us know how you are getting on

Darren

Posted 7/15/2007 6:55 PM (GMT 0)
I think Darren is right that you should check with your Dr. about taking 2 anti depressants and also the clonzepam.  I used to take clonzepam and the one thing about it for me was that it made me very tired.  Maybe that is why you feel numb.  Maybe you need a lower dose.  Also, I think it would be better to take just one anti depressant.  You are certainly worthwile and deserving of help as anyone.  If you have a clinic where you can get counseling you should take advantage of it.  Talk therapy can be every bit as helpful as meds.  Maybe if you are less sedated you will start to feel better about yourself.  I hope I am not sounding to harsh - I would just like to help.  Please post again and let us know how you are doing.  Take care.

Posted 7/16/2007 12:19 PM (GMT 0)
thank you for answering part of the trouble is the doc is switching me off effexor and im on a low dose of paxil and he cancelled my appointment at start of july meaning im on reduced meds for almost 3 months and i am sure if i get more of the paxil it might work as for clonozpan without it i wouldnt do very well being around people it calms me from being over wired and wanting to stay away from others
Posted 7/17/2007 2:11 AM (GMT 0)
hi destroyer,

I'm new to this forum and the bipolar forum... was wondering if you could possibly make an earlier appointment with your doctor. It just seems to me 3 months is difficult to bear with reduced meds.
I am no expert just a fellow survivor... I'm finding it hard to get out of the house too... and I'm closing up... not good at all I'm aware of it... just going day by day.

With all the best intentions I hope you get to see your doctor sooner. I wish you all the best and peaceful days to come...

sincerely hugs

joe from singapore
Posted 7/17/2007 7:52 AM (GMT 0)

Hi Destroyer,

Like Joe, I think 3 months is a long time for someone to be on reduced meds without seeing a doctor. You should insist on seeing someone (Even if its not your regular doctor... something is better than nothing) to make sure that your meds are being managed effectively.

Best Wishes

Darren

Posted 7/17/2007 12:09 PM (GMT 0)
Destroyer
I wanted to welcome you to the forum.

Everyone has given you excellent advice. I agree with Darren that you should talk to your doctor.

Please keep us posted

Shy
Posted 7/17/2007 11:51 PM (GMT 0)
hi i have never replyed to someones elses post befor but hi :) .... everyone has there own issues and to everyone someone elses issues seem worse then our own.. so maybe you should post on here more often..and seeking profeshional help is the best thing you can do that and talkign about it.. let me know how your doing ok .... you wont be cured over night but it will hapen.. and ill be more then happy to talk to you about it when you need a friendly chat
Posted 7/18/2007 3:09 AM (GMT 0)
I might have missed it, but was wondering if you were getting talk therapy too. I know that it really helped me bridge the valley from being a victim to living with depression. Still have rough days, but have learned tools to help me through the bad days.
Posted 7/18/2007 7:50 AM (GMT 0)
i also take 2 antidepressants and im gladd i do it works for me.You have to keep trying till you find the right meds for you, depression is hard to dill with without help........I find reading self help books help me with my depression, praying also.dont give up we all feel as you do when it comes to depression...hang in there and talk with your DR....
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