Lonely and Sad

Hey All.
I really hate to post about myself as usually I don't get more than one response which then just dumps me futher down. But right now I feel I need to try.

I am feeling sad and so lonely, no one calls, no one emails me...no friends to go out with. I have been trying for almost 2 years to get past the lonely feelings but they come back. My hubby is an introvert and we have no friends. He is gone now til Monday fishing with his folks.

Why me Lord? I don't do well alone in this sadness.

"Only the lonely Know the way I feel tonight
Only the lonely Know this feelin aint right "

Hugs for you Kitt, I'm glad that you can say this out loud, I know where you are coming from. I don't want to patronise by saying join a club or something but it really can help spark some new friendships, so might be worth a try?
I am a fine one to talk though - I totally lack the courage to make myself do that sort of thing! I have these big ideas but don't seem to be able to follow them through. Maybe you could try an online club of sorts?

I am starting some voluntary work next week for an animal charity, I am sure that I will meet some new faces there, so again, maybe community work?

And you always have us here!! I'd reply to any of your posts/mails.
You have offered a great deal of support and comfort to the people in this forum, and just because you are a moderator doesn't mean you don't need a bit of encouragement/a shoulder too!
Take care and keep us posted on how you are doing
Big Hugs
Wizzer

Dear Singer and Wizzer,
Thank you, I appreciate your answers more then you can know. Sometimes I just get scared and feel like no one even knows I am here. But I have made some great strides and I know I need to keep moving forward.
I have lost so much in my life, but losing my son to a car accident was the hardest thing. A bad day can bring back all the memories and the pain is overwhelming when I have no one to turn too.
I now know I can come here. Helping people is what I love to do, that is the nurse in me. I have applied for a part time position at our new YMCA as an attendant..............bottom of the pile job, but I want to stay low profile. I do not want the stress of being in a management position anymore. I just want a simple life and to feel happy.
Again thank you so much.

I too understand what you are feeling and it is very hard.  I hate to be lonely and alone at home.  I get very despairing but I have managed to do a few things to keep myself from sinking too far.  I always have several books that I am looking forward to reading - ones I know will truly hold my interest.  I also have a needlepoint project going and that can take hours to pass the time.  The one thing I always try to do is have at least one friend I know I can call if the lonliness gets to unbearable.  Do you have someone you can call?  The other things I do are go to a bookstore and spend hours looking at the books.  Even if I am alone there are always many people around and i don't feel so alone.  I also have a garden/gift shop I love and just go there to browse.  Even a few weeks ago I summoned the courage to go to a movie by myself.  That was a big help.  I know it sounds easier to talk about doing all these things than actually going ahead with something but hopefully you will be able to try one.  When I feel I can't take it anymore I will call the depression hotline to have someone to talk to.  And of course you can always post here - we all care and want to help.  I hope you will be feeling better soon. 

Is that your idea of 1 response Kitt?
Joking apart, I am always here if you want me. I know how hard long weekends can be on your own. Is there any news of your volunteer work? That might be a way of expanding your social network
Big British Hugs
Darren

Dearest Kitt,
You always answer my posts in the anxiety forum, and are so wonderful and helpful... I hate that you are suffering. I guess we sometimes forget to thank the moderators for all the help they give... You are wonderful, and you deserve so much happiness. I hope you know how much you are loved and appreciated.
(((Big Hugs)))
Bear

Kitt,
(((((hugs))))) You are so wonderful. You have been so supportive to me. I too feel like I'm going to lose control, or get scared when my bf is away. It's like I can't handle it. I'm okay if I'm not depressed. But when I'm depressed, it's not a good scene. Sometimes I'll even be feeling okay, my mood will either be high or at least better, and if he has to go somewhere, it puts me in a state of depression and things become scary. It is something I fear and want so badly to change, but how?
So needless to say I know how you feel. I don't have any friends either.
I also know how it feels to be rescued by the support of HW. Just over a week ago, I posted a desperate cry for help in the Bipolar forum, and it was answered (it was so amazing, overwhelming in the best way) and totally got me through. The support from HW seriously got me through the crisis.
Good for you for getting out, I'm so proud of you for that. Also couldn't be prouder that you posted in the first place. Don't ever hesitate to do that. We're always here.
Hope you are feeling better, and I will be keeping my eye out for you.
PS. Just something to add...When I posted that cry for help, I was severely depressed. I kept my computer on, kept HW up on the screen and took a nap in the spare bed in the computer room that day. Just knowing that everyone was there in the room with me, on HW, made me feel like I wasn't alone. It was very comforting.

Mogs,
Hi there and thank you, I could take a nap in the computer room too. Never thought of that but what a great idea. I don't know why things can be good for weeks and than boom. I always tell myself I am not alone, but the feeling is there and then the tears start and it is on to guilt and insecurity and sensitivity all ruashing at me at once.
I so appreciate everyone here and it is truly a life saver to be able to be a part of HW.
Thank you for your support.
Dear Carla,
What can I say, thank you is such a small way of trying to tell you how much I appreciate you and I am better today. Yesterday I just stayed in the moment and came here, looking at the many people who are in need and felt gald that I could be here to support and share myself with others.
You are such a gentle person and you understand people well, don't ever lose that trait.
Gentle hugs dear lady.
Kitt

Thank you so much for the kind words. You have helped so many yourself and I am greatful for having the opportunity to meet you here.

You are right.........about pets, I have two dogs. My babies are 2 Female black and tan Dobermans. One is old and arthritic but through my deepest depressions she stayed by my side. I would sit on the floor and hug her while I cried and she never moved. Her name is Dee, for D'Oblique. The second one is younger and her name is Morgan and both are retired show dogs. Dee is the grandmother to Morgan.

Not only do they keep me company, no one would want to break into my house . The girls are quite protective.
Again, thank you so much.

Angel,

My adopted daughter accross the ocean, thank you for just being you. You lift my spirits with the ecards you send as they always put a smile on my face.
Love
Mum Kitt

Hey it is so great to have a Big Sis, even if I am older than you. lol
You know I am ok and with this wonderful group to reach out to I can get back up on the horse.
I want you to conserve your energy for the tough things you are going through so never worry, I may be down from time to time but I won't break.
Love you back and would do anything to help you.
Gentle Hugs and thank you for the constant encouragement.
Lil Sis.