addicted to crying?

Sometimes I feel like no matter how hard I try to overcome my negative thoughts and emotions there comes a point where I can't go any further without going backwards...I can have a fun night out, do something good for myself, have fun with a friend but in the end the real comfort comes from wallowing in some kind of negativity whether it be pity or just a general longing for something and crying. Sometimes I'll just say something to myself like I can't wait to go home and cry..and I'll just cry for no reason or I'll find something, anything to cry about...and that feels good, it feels better than being happy sometimes...its so sick. I feel like I'll never be able to just be ok, I'll always come back to being miserable, because I'm addicted to it, it's such a part of me. Do I just accept this? Does anyone else know what I mean?

Jenni,
Are you on any kind of meds? I used to do this but I hate to cry, but I do cry. I do not like the sad feelings, and try my best to beat them and I have learned through thearpy and meds that I can beat them.
Sometimes I still cry but not as often as I used to.