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Posted 10/12/2007 5:16 PM (GMT 0)
i've been on it since last friday!!!
Posted 10/15/2007 10:38 AM (GMT 0)

Once agian I am sitting here wanting to write something but i dont know what to say where to start.I am feeling alone irritated with an aching in my heart.I feel completly worthless a failure,dont know how to live this day...Have so many thoughts churning inside my mind judging me and finding me guilty as charged.I get angry at myself I know i have to thinl positive that i need to start somewhere and take it step by step.I look in the mirror and i dont know who it is i am looking at i just feel a disgust I dont want to talk or write about my pathetic life anymore its pointless.i know what everyone is going to say and eventually they run out of things to say and it just leaves negative feelings.I kept it inside until it boiled over then i talked phone the lines talked some more its pointless.i havent tried meds because they will just make the mood lighter they cant change me who i am give me caracter make something out of a nothing.

I am trapped in no mans land between life and death. i cant live and i can t die and in prosess i burden those who live..........  

Posted 10/15/2007 12:00 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Dark

I am sorry that you are so down today. What about just starting at the beginning?
Even if you type it out on a different document,just type and try to get it all out. It is up to you whether you post it here.


That would be a huge first step!


Shy
Posted 10/15/2007 1:52 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Dark, You are wrong about the meds....if you are suffering from a chemical imbalance which causes depression the meds will alter the imbalance and enable to you to feel better and then tackle your problems one at a time. I used to describe my depression before meds as being in a dark hole. Everytime I tried to climb out I slipped back in. It is worth a try. You sound like you are in a bad place right now and I feel for you. Please keep coming to this forum and don't give up the fight!
Posted 10/18/2007 3:55 AM (GMT 0)
Everything inside me everything around me tells me that this is the way it will always be and I cant. How do you change if you are your own worst enemy how do you live in this world if you cant live in your own skin?Bla Bla Bla there i go again  i hate feeling like this i hate saying it out loud i disgust myself.

I dont even know why I bother writing it down who cares i am just a stranger on the otherside of the world to pathetic to make something of her life posting the same things over and over again.Today I spent the last money we completly broke not one cent left the food will run out soon not that i eat much now days my partner will get some more money month end its a long way off if they get paid this month and we still have a place to stay but not sure how long but why its just a survival game what is the point ? ??

Post Edited (Dark) : 10/18/2007 4:52:59 AM (GMT-6)

Posted 10/18/2007 11:41 AM (GMT 0)
Dark
I really think that you need to get help now.
You need more help that what we can offer you here,and I am very worried about you.
Please contact your doctor right now



Shy
Posted 10/19/2007 11:07 AM (GMT 0)
Hi guys

This thread is getting pretty long and it is hard to sort through,I have started a new thread with the same title for you Dark,that way more of us can reply.



Shy
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