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Posted 10/27/2007 6:14 PM (GMT 0)
hi

i hope yuo donet mind me posting on here. i normally post on the ibs forum. fisrt thuogh i do apliose for the raelly crap spelling. i am dsylexic so not thta great at speling.

i hvae been surering wiht depression for abuot a yaer now. i hvae a few chonic illnesses whcih raelly get me down. i canet seem to deal wiht anythnig at the mo. some days i feel so low. but there are days wehn i can funtion ok. i had a day off from wrok last week as i huirt my arm but i jsut couldnet face giong into wrok. every week i am ill. i am on so many meds at the moenmt. i aslways hvae an apointment wiht a gp or some one from the medical prefession. the troulbe is thta nothnig ever gets sorted. i am under my local mental haelth unit who hvae been very good to me. thye refered me to a pshcologist. i saw one last week but it could take up to a yaer before i get any treatmnet whcih she has put me forward for. it is so hard to get any motivation to do thnigs. i know i need to lose weigth for health reasons but finding motivation to do it is hard. i keep geting chest infections two in a few months. i had a pnewmona jab done last wek but i couldnet even hvae thta wiht out my arm swelling and geting a bad reaction. i had the flu jab today jsut hopeing thta it wonet make my arm swell. i aslo had two ops in three months. and i am due to hvae more tests. only to be told thta there is no cure for waht i got. i feel like staying in bed some days. i try raelly hard but canet pull myself together.

my mum had an op three weeks ago so looking after her at mo. her recouvery is taking a long time. i aslo lost my nan a few yaers ago and last yaer my grandad and another relative. abuot a month ago i lost my uncle to cancer. wiht in two weks of diagnoses he died. he was only young. my sister in law is expecting there fisrt child naer xmas. beucase of one of my conditons i may not be able to hvae kids. so seeing her makes me so jerous and i jsut want to tell her to shut up. shout or scream. i hate my self for feeling like thsi as it is somethnig thta i raelly happy for thme but not if yuo know waht i maen.

i am so sorry for all my moaning.
Posted 10/28/2007 2:08 AM (GMT 0)

Hello Oneday

I am sorry that you are feling down but from your post it appears you have many issues that would cause you to feel down as well as a chronic illness has a tendency to go hand in hand with depression.

I do not know where you live but a year feels like a long time before you can get into any therapy.  I hope your GP is treating your depression with something. Are you on an antidepressant?

Also have you thought of setting up an exercise program as exercise is a powerful tool against depression? Get out and take some time for you.  Just a walk for 30 minutes a day or whatever you can manage.

Keep on posting and remember there is a light at the end of the tunnel.


Posted 10/28/2007 11:24 AM (GMT 0)

Hi there,

Kitt has got a great idea there... one I have suggested to many people. Exercise. Doing exercise helps get the blood flowing and can increase your body's ability to process vitamin D which can help alleviate depression. Do you live in the UK? Getting treatment on the NHS is very slow since there is such a pressure on it. too many patients and not enough doctors. I am sorry that you have had to go through all this, but please keep talking to us.

Darren

Posted 10/28/2007 3:41 PM (GMT 0)
oneday~

I agree with my fellow posters but I will tell you that I understand no motivation and getting advice to exercise when you can barely muster up enough energy to take a shower or make your bed.  I am certainly not down playing any of the advice on my fellows but sometimes it seems so cliche to say the same thing will help you such as exercise.

 

I had an accident over 2 months ago that nearly took my life.  I have learned more than anything that positive thoughts and making yourself function is extremely difficult but necessary.  After you have mastered that burden then everything else kind of falls into place.

 

I dont exercise but I do wash my car, or crossstich and with fall here I found pumpkins to paint and carve.

 

It is not easy by any means getting motivated, trust me I know but little things that do motivate me somewhat season be for more things that are not want to do.

 

It is hard but it starts with the way you feel, positive is better.

Posted 10/29/2007 10:02 AM (GMT 0)
i hvae been told to erxercise. i do try but sometime wehn i feel unwell i jsut canet motivate myself to get out. i am hoeping thta i donet hvae to wait to long before i can get more help. i do live in the uk so we hvae a national haelth service. we can go priavte but as i am olny wroking part time due to illness and depression i canet afoord to go prtivte. i am takeing one day at a time.
Posted 10/30/2007 11:20 AM (GMT 0)

Taking one day at a time is a great idea. Dont try to rush yourself or force yourself to do things too hard as it doesnt work very well because it is easy to fall back to where you were. Take things slowly, but always make sure you are moving forwards.

Darren

Posted 11/2/2007 11:32 AM (GMT 0)
One day
I am just checking in with you to see how you are doing...



Shy
Posted 11/3/2007 6:32 PM (GMT 0)
hi ya

i am diong beter at mo. stil feel low but hvae made a big effort to go out wiht a mate. i went to the gym today whcih i donet raelly enjoy but know it has to be beter thna diong nothnig. i hvae to force my slef to get down there. i hvae ben stressed out thsi wek as wrok hvae not ben good. ihad to go to the dentist as i hvae a lump come up in my mouht. my gp sent me there and wrok told me i couldnet go. i went anyway as my haelth is more important. i may hvae to hvae thsi lump cut out in hositpal.

i am guessing thta becuase i am down i seem to be picking thnigs up all the time. i hvae never ben raelly well but recently it has got worse.

sarah
Posted 11/4/2007 10:45 AM (GMT 0)

Hi Sarah,

Its nice to hear that you are getting up and about, even if you are having to force yourself. If you keep doing it, it will feel less and less like a chore and more like something to look forward to. I think you made the right choice regarding your dentist apointment as well... I would have done the same thing.

Let us know how you get on with your lump

Darren

Posted 11/6/2007 9:23 PM (GMT 0)
it jsut seems thta everythnig is agiasnt our family at mo. my aunt lost her husband a few monhts ago. she was taken in to hsotpial as thye thnik she may hvae had a stroke. it jsut feels like everytime somethnig postive happens somethnig esle happens.

i am finding thnigs raelly hard but am trying to be postive. i jsut donet feel very well and thne i canet be bothered as well.

i did make a postive move yestruday as i went out for the fisrt time in monhts maybe more thna thta.
Posted 11/7/2007 10:29 AM (GMT 0)

Hi Sarah,

I know what you mean what yousay that everything is against your family... I have the same problem. Just recently, we have has 2 people diagnosed with cancer (1 isnt expected to last more than 6 months), we had to have our dog put down after she had another stroke... the list goes on. Whats important is how you deal with the problems. Congratulations on going out yesterday... it must have taken a lot to do that, but hopefully the next time will be easier.

All the best

Darren

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