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Hello Guy,

I am sorry to hear of your difficulty with depression.  I have lived with depression and most of the time I have done well.  So don't give up hope.

I am wondering why in 9 months you have had several therapists and have not attended school at all.  That does not seem to me like a good plan to isolate.

Try not to get into who in your family has a history of depression, stay in the moment and take care of you.  I would suggest CBT therapy if you would go back to a therapist that uses CBT.

I am sure there is a thread in this forum on CBT.  I will try to pull it up for you.

Here is the link for CBT in the Anxiety Forum:

https://www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=9&m=734325

Maybe some one else knows where the depression forum one is. It was an excellent thread.

Take care and keep posting.

Kitt

Thank you both for your concern and thank you Kitt for the advice.

 

I think my the therapist i am seeing now said something about the CBT or gave me a paper about it but it didn't really go in depth about what to do. i'm sure i can ask her if she can find the paper again.

 

The school problem wasn't really what I wanted either but because of how my first therapist tried to guilt me into going it got to a point where I only stayed in the nurses office and wasn't able to control my anxiety or stop shaking because when I am around more then a few people I start to get panic attacks. My parents decided to wait until i got better and atleast be able to focus on the work the school would give me before trying to do it again.

 

When I found out my families depression it made me feel a little better because it wasn't my fault but it my genes. It also helped to know that they got through their depression so it gave me some small hope of getting better.

 

Off for now, bye

My depression&anxiety also began in high school. I had been feeling down for about 6 months, and then had my first ever panic attack while outside for gym. I think we were practicing for track and field. It was extremely difficult to return to school after that, and like you I ended up spending a lot of time in the nurses office because I felt like I couldn't be around large groups of people. Even walking into the school was hard because everything about it scared me - even the smell. I fell behind and had to repeat a semester. I can relate to feeling like a burden on your family - I ended up being isolated for a while, with only my family around because they were the people I felt safe around. But try not to worry about that right now, like Kitt mentioned, just look after yourself. It takes time, but it does get better, and easier. I think CBT would be good to look into. And while I'm not advocating medication, I know it did help me - especially with the anxiety. Dealing with depression and anxiety while in high school is tough, but there are lots of people here you can talk to, and lots of good advice.

-Flop