on the edge

befoe i was put on lexapro i thought about harming  my self after my gf broke up with me. shortly after i started taking the lex i threatened to take a bottle of pills to my x she called the cops on me i was so upset i didnt want to go on any longer with out her i loved her so much and still do. the next day i went to the er and spoke to a crisis counsler. they refered me to a therapist. there i was given a larger dosage of lex and given adavant for anxitiy. lately ive been feeling really bad and some trees and light poles have looked very welcoming. the only thing that has stopped me was the though of my mother i am her whole world she would harm  her self too. i do think that if i did have a means that i might not be here right now. ive been going out almost every weekend to try to meet new ppl to get my mind off the x and while im out i feel great but i fail at meeting any one. the ones i do meet and get their number either the number is a fake or they stand me up.that is a nother thing pushing me closer to the edge idk how much longer i can stop myself from hurting my self.

Scotty, I edited some of your words per our rules but your post has not changed in its message.  Thank you for understanding.

Post Edited By Moderator (stkitt) : 1/23/2008 11:39:33 PM (GMT-7)

Scotty

Hello this is Kitt and I am so glad you went to the ER and that you have a therapist.  It is always difficult breaking up with someone you care deeply for and I do feel your pain. We all experience break up at some point in our life and it's not easy and probably one of the most worst feelings in the world. You are going through a crisis now and what you need to do is talk it out and let out your feelings.  Keep talking. 

Deal with one day at a time. Just get through today and let tomorrow take care of itself.  You can do this and with our help you will make it.

Please make an appointment to see your therapist ASAP and come here and talk to us.  We are here and we care.  We will listen to what you have to say and we will support you with friendship and a place to feel safe.

If you are feeling so low that you don't feel you can cope please seek help immediately:

Call 911
or
1-800-SUICIDE
(1-800-784-2433)
or
1-800-273-TALK
(1-800-273-8255)

AS for going out looking for someone, it may be to soon for you. You may feel like you will never meet anyone else and everything reminds you of  her. You may find yourself questioning who you can trust, including you since you didn't expect the breakup many times you will wonder if you were wrong trusting your partner. It takes time to rebuild yourself and the relationships with others, be patient!

Be good to yourself and know that you are a good and kind person, don't beat yourself up but instead take babysteps toward recovery. Make sure you eat well and exercise.  And most of all know that we care about you. Gentle Hugs and stay with us.  We need you here.

stkitt