Set back

I was doing fine and than was told I should have a colonoscopy. Well this was a worry as last spring my sister had colon surgery.(she's doing fine). My test turned out just fine. No cancer. Before the test I held up really well, but since the test I wake up with that scarry feeling and depression. I get up right away and get a cup of coffee and turn on the TV for an escape and after my meds I seem to do ok. Dread the mornings. Does anyone else have these after affects when you've been through a trying time?

Thanks, Dee

depression, anxiety, panic attacks

Zoloft/Klonipin/ Ambien

Dee

To make a long story short,I was abused for as long as I can remember in my life. By my mom,her b/f and then marrying and staying with an abuser for 13 years.

I am in a good environment now,but..there are many mornings that I wake up,and have to remind myself that I am safe. It usually takes me a couple of hours to shake that feeling.

Last week,I could not shake the feeling that either something was wrong or something was going to happen.
I sat down and thought about it over the weekend and realized that last Tuesday would have been our anniversary date.. and the reason I had the bad feelings was because every year he would become physco because I refused to celebrate being married to him,and the fights and abuse would usually last for days.

I am certain that when we are traumatized in some way,it seems that it takes us a little longer to realize that we are ok once it is over.

Try to keep your mind off of it somehow,reading a book,or listening to music..

I thank all of you for your advise. It really helps. Your right that it takes time. I'm going to relax and take it easy. I'm crocheting an afghan for the hospital cancer center. This always helps me relax. Thanks again for caring. Hugs, Dee

Anything that helps you relax is great..

Keep us posted on how you are doing Dee