I don't know what to do :(

Hi Stomagirl,

What you are discribing is a bit worrysome to me.  If it isn't a reaction from stopping your antidepressant, it sounds like high blood pressure or possibly heading to a stroke.  If I were you I would get ahold of my doctor asap.  This is nothing to put off.

I take effexor and if I were to go off of that without tapering, really gradually, I would have dizzy spells and feel like I am falling off of the face of the earth. 

But what you are going through with losing the use of your hands really scares me.  Please  get ahold of your doctor.

With the loss of your friend that could be putting way too much stress on you.  I honestly don't think that this is a good time to stop meds and counseling.  I really think that you should think about starting both again.  Often we don't realize that something is helping us until we go without it.  Just like we don't realize we feel bad until we start feeling good.  So please think about it.  You can always try a different antidepressant. 

Please call your doctor and explain what you are going through.

Hugs, Karen

Hi, thanks for the suggestions. I went to the doctor today and he said basically that I was being paranoid, but if it got worse to go back and he'd refer me to a neuro surgeon. he also did my blood pressure which was low-average so I have no idea now.

Today was a bad day as well, i got back from that and was really depressed cause it seems that he can't be bothered with me, its also the same doctor that mis-diagnosed my crohn's disease as a stomach bug so im now really worried that he's gonna mis-diagnose me again. so i kinda got really mad and went into a shell for a while cause i felt like no one cared, i'm a bit better now but still quite bad. i don't know whether to go to another doctor or not cause i'm worried they'll say the same to me.

I also said i was off the antidepressants and he didn't seem bothered about that either, just sorta shrugged and said it was fine. i asked if i could have some different ones or something and he arranged for me to see a therapist this week but said he'd "look into" more pills which, given his history means he'll do nothing about it.

sorry this was a bit of a rant but i'm realy frustrated and feel really alone right now. i tried talking to my mum about it but she doesn't understand at all what i mean so it made things kinda worse.

:(