i cant stop dreaming of my x they range from us getting back toghter us just hooking up or her telling me that she is prego by the guy she left me for. i havent heard from her in a few weeks.i cant stop thinkking about
her ,this week was the 6 month anni of when she ripped my heart out i was taking the day pretty good this a jerk at work was digging into deeper and deeper. i was able tocontrol my self. at time i still close my eyes and see her. granted i cant belive looking back on it now how fast six minths have gone by.i know that i shouldnt need someone in my life to make me feel good about
my self but i want someone that i can talk to lay down with and hang out with. i just feel alone
. i havent been able to hang out with my best friend lately. he visits his gf on the weekends so hanging out on the weekends is out. i got switched to nights on my day job so i cant see him during the week because he works during the day. im just so sad i feel like im on a roller coaster.