Excessive Loneliness

I'm fourteen, I'm scared my friends dislike me secretly and I get picked on sometimes at School. My Parents don't KNOW me, and I#m only happy when Learning. I'm proclaimed the School Geek and yesterday some delinquents threw rocks at me.

I'm OBSESSED with being smart, and think that I'm stupid. This is scary.

I went through that myself. I eventually learned that they didn't dislike me, I had pulled away from them. Is it possible that that is the case with you? If not, then I'd say that if they still want to be with you (they initiate conversations, etc), they don't dislike you. If they do seem to avoid you, call them out on it.
With the rocks, in theory there are 3 ways to deal with it, but only one intelligent way: go above their heads. I've gotta agree with Kitt on this one. I've had them thrown at me. I tried throeing them back and realized I was just giving them more ammo, both with the rocks and the reactions. Running away gives them a reaction as well, so they'll keep doing it. However, if you calmly (but quickly, of course) walk away from them to the nearest person of power (parent, teacher, principal, etc.), they'll usually stop. That doesn't matter. Tell the adult and let them eat their just desserts. Let someone else do the work of punishing them for you.
I, too, have been obsessed with knowledge nad wanting to know more my whole life. IT is no shame being a geek, it's something to be proud of. I should know, I am one. Geek, nerd, brainiac, whatever it all boils down to, it means one thing: they believe you are smarter than them and can't bear the thought. They don't like the idea that because you enjoy learning and it comes easily to you, it's likely you (or someone like you) could control their fate in the job they choose. By all means, you are not stupid, quite the contrary. If you were stupid, you wouldn't acknowledge that you don't know everything, you wouldn't want to know more. Stupid is not ever wanting to evolve or grow. You are not.

RAther than feeling like you've been "saddled" with the title "geek", embrace it. Not only will you feel better and find a whole new batch of people like you, but it'll be a way to show the bullies that they can't get under your skin (even if they do.)

If you are doubt as to the level of my geekiness, consider this: I am an engineer, read sci fi, read 2-4 1000 page books a week, built my computer, and wear the modern equivalent of coke- bottle glasses. I game (both computer games and card based RPG), I watch Nova and history channel. I am more worried about my computer's parts and health than make up or fashion. Geekiness is something to be proud of and I'll shout my geekiness from the rooftop. Wanna join me on that?

Good Morning Bronze,

How are you today? You have received some wise advice and I agree Geeks are cool, I love the Geek Squad, they come and fix my computer. Knowledge is fun, I want to learn more all the time.  Stick with us as we will support you and it looks like you have found new friends here that understand you.

Hugs
Kitt

I did the same thing in high school. Dumbing myself down to be accepted, big mistake. Though I am not too old to learn, I wasted a lot of time not learning when I was young. So yes, Geeks are cool. Stay the way that you are and don't let anyone cause you to feel lesser about yourself. You are a wonderful, smart person....

hugs, Karen...

I was the same way in school, wish Iwas smart now as I was then. And exactly the same thing happened to me, i had rocks thrown at me, a whole gang of girls against me, i did nothing to desrve 5 or 6 girls trying to beat me up. One shoved me up against a brick wall which drew blood on my face, but in desperation, I just started laughing about it, i couldnt out run them, i wasnt gonna let them see me cry. So I laughed, this is after they had destroyed my notebooks. Looking back i think they were jealous maybe?

I dont recall telling an authority figure, which i should have.

But there was a girl who had witnesses it and she was bigger and taller than even the girls tormenting me. She came over and they ran like crazy, she was very tall and stocky, you wouldnt want her on your bad side. she said dont worry, they wont mess you any more, and she walked me home. talk about angels out of no where!!  They never did mess with me again.

I agree with all the others embrace your smartness, and dont stoop yourslef down to their level. you are better than that....

I understand where you're coming from Bronze. I suffered through some major depression when I was your age (I'm not old, I'm 19 *going on twenty*, now... I had recovered from that period of depression, but I've recently slipped into depression again and it's got quite the hold on me at the moment). I agree with what a lot of people here are saying... (especially the part about contacting a school official regarding the kids that threw rocks at you. I know you're worried about further retaliation if you tell, but you can't let this go on. It's physical abuse... physical harrassment. As a student, you have a right to a safe environment. As a citizen of whatever country you're from *I'd assume U.S., but I don't know*, you have a right to be free from harm from other citizens. Seriously, you could sue them and probably win if things have to come to that.)

I had to deal with verbal and physical harassment myself... There was actually a time someone put a kick me sign (believe it or not, I still have trouble believing that people still do that, it's so old) on my back... and a group of kids kicked me all down the hallway. Another time, a girl purposely hit me against the head with her purse... Then, there was this guy who threatened to break my foot. I let it go on for a long time, but it didn't stop until I finally broke down and told a school official, and INSISTED on justice because of my fear of retaliation.

Embrace your intelligence... You need to realize that you are not stupid and are, in fact, very intelligent. Turn it into something to be proud of. Proclaim to everyone that you're quite happy being a nerd or a geek... Make it something stylish... (Watch the movie Superbad, sometime... there's a really funny nerd on there, and if you can make references to the movie sometime, some kids might actually think you're pretty cool. Also... I'm not sure if you're male or female, but if you're female: Get the 'Talk nerdy to me' t-shirt.) Really play it up... Have fun with your nerdiness... make fun of your nerdiness.

This will help, trust me. I still do this, and I'm in college... it makes a world of difference in how people treat you. You'll still run into some jerks, but having fun with your nerdiness will kind of help you in letting whatever the jerks say to you kind of roll off your shoulders.