Trivia

I've been feeling so much better lately in terms of being depressed! I think when my Dad died it gave me a shock to the system, which made me realise what a gift life is and that I can't spend it all feeling sad.  So I am doing much better with that.  But still suffering from moodiness and irritability! I am sick of getting upset for days over trivial stuff! Something really small such as for example, my boyfriend not feeling like doing something that I want to do - can create days of tension. The other day I tried to show him something in a magazine & he didn't hear me, and I went mad saying he was ignorning me and I got all moody.  The thing is that although I might be over it in half an hour or so, the damage has already been done, he is then upset with me and thinks i'm totally irrational, and tho he is v understanding of me and we can sit down and talk about it after - I can let him understanding allow me to accept my own behaviour.  I have to change this stuff about myself! as it is meaning that things trivial stupid things really can stress me out!!  Grr!

anyway if anyone can offer me any advice it would be much appreciated,

Thanks,

Li xx

The most horrible thing with depression is that no matter how good you feel, it still lingers unknown to us as all the things we notice when we are ok.  I have never had a day in my whole life where if I felt ok I was not haunted by the thought that a terrible awful feeling of depression is waiting for me as soon as 1 little thing happens.  To some people, these are minor things that they dont feel upset over but for us with depression, it can turn the best day into the worst days in a flash.

I like when I have a good day but I constantly wonder if in the next hour I could lose this good feeling again.  It is so frustrating.

I just keep pushing and pushing.  I have been a member here for a couple years and if you have read my posts, these show how vicious depression can be every day year after year.  That is why I come here.

I am in this same boat, but with me it is usually the "stinkin thinkin" and let what others say and do hurt my feelings when I know that some people just are not the warm and caring type.  I set my expectations of an event to high and then I have set my self up for a fall.

I am going to stop this behavior and start to learn to buffer myself by just taking life as it comes.  Somedays are just better then others.

Hugs

Kitt

Confusedli

Good Morning.  I am glad you are seeing your counselor on Friday..........and yes do speak up about your issues.  Good for you, your being an advocate for yourself.

Hugs

Kitt