its been 7 years.

old memories back to haunt me.

this month marks seven years since i was molested by my grandfather.

i used this forum to help when i reached dead bottom in my life and it really helped me.

its been years actually since ive been on here and im so scared of falling back into old habits of killing the pain.

i dont understand what happened..... i was doing perfectly fine.. dealing with it better than i ever have and now im just.... i feel so exhuasted.

I'm away at college which isnt helping cause ive been extremely homesick and now everything just feels even worse.

i cant talk to anyone.

my family acts like it never happened and my father tells my mother i need to " get over it"

so what do i do......... someone please tell me what the hell im suposed to do if its been this long and i STILL cant overcome this.

cause im running out of ways to deal.

Hello  NeverGetsEasyx

This is Kitt.  I am glad to meet you but wish it did not have to be here.

Have you ever been through the CBT therapy? 

Cognitive-behavioral therapy is based on the idea that our thoughts cause our feelings and behaviors, not external things, like people, situations, and events. The benefit of this fact is that we can change the way we think to feel / act better even if the situation does not change.

Here is a free online site where you can complete the program on your own. Many members swear by this and it has been very successful for members with PTSD.

CBT

The MoodGym Training Program

http://moodgym.anu.edu.au/

Just click on the link.

I hope you give it a look and please know we support you.

Gentle Hugs
Kitt

As Chile said,

And I agree, there is no time limit on grief. There is no right or wrong way. Embrace your feelings, no matter what they be. Acknowledge them. Then try to move on. If it comes back, then you deal with it again. It will get easier with time. Time does help heal wounds. But sometimes it can take a lot of time.

I also agree that you could use some professional support. I think that counseling would help. I know that it stirs up some old feelings and memories, but this way you will be better able to deal with them.

Also if you are suffering from some ptsd, that is your mind protecting you. The mind has a way of healing at it's own pace, it all goes accordance with what you are able to handle at the time.

Best wishes to you, and please keep posting,as we are here for you.

Hugs, Karen