Heeja all,
I am sorry for not being that much the last week, since it was pretty busy. I had my first major exam, and I spend yesterday and today at my old school to prepare and perform the presentations about
our project in Rwanda. It was a pretty stressful week, and I am relieved it is over now (it is 23:20 here now, and I am broken tired, I hope I don't fall asleep writing this
).
But the good news is that I think I passed my exam, and the presentations today went, well, as they went. Everyone loved it, except that I kinda screwed up my part for the last, and biggest, presentation (of 6 in a row). I just forget some of my lines, and it took some time before I could improvise the rest, the spotlight just hold me in his grasp for a few seconds. I felt pretty bad after that. But while sitting there, trying to get my mind straight at one time and feeling like running away the next, a quote popped up in my head. "Life is suffering". It helped me so much, though it might seem negative at first. But realizing life is suffering, and seeing that accepting that suffering is a way out straightened my thoughts. I remembered a Buddhist practise on suffering, where you see your pain as pain taken away from some one else. You suffer, so others won't have to feel that same pain. It might sound weird, but it helped.
That is what I wanted to say. I had a thousand thoughts about
what I should write when I was feeling bad just after my mistakes, but none of that negative thoughts remain (at least, at the moment
).
I hope you all have a great day, I am going to sleep for the next 24-hours
Ciao!
Erik