I'm Back

Hi everyone, I found out I was approved for my insurance yesterday! So thank god. I have some anual stuff to get taken care of first then I will seek out a Behavioral Health center to get on the road to feeling better. I already started calling the daycares yesterday too, so I can get my son in somewhere 1 or 2 days a week to allow me to go to my appointments. I'm hoping to get him in by next week but I will take as much time with that as it takes. I'm already feeling the dose of reality after my boyfriend went back to work Monday....Don't like being here alone and feeling a little depressed. I just feel like I'm back to my old self and the old routine. I went to my moms by myself over thanksgiving weekend to have a break and it was nice.....Not long enough but I'm glad that I was able to do it. I guess I've just really been noticing that I am a depressed person. I have to put a act on around other people to make it seem like I'm normal, I was in a fog when we went out of town for a little get away....I had fun but just wasn't all there.....I know that it's going to be a long road ahead of me.....I need to get meds and be in counseling.....I plan on getting couples counseling after I have some time to heal a little of myself to save my relationship. It just seems like so much and I really don't know where I will end up. We have been together for 4yrs and it's hard for me to explain but I've never really felt rightfully in love with him......It started affecting our relationship last year and on top of the depression it's gone down hill.....I'm at the point where I feel like I just want to be his friend but I am willing to get into counseling to try and work it out. I don't know.....I feel like maybe if I work on being a better me maybe things will change......But I do want to get the couples counseling at some point......I don't know I'm rambling......

In any event I just have to work on one thing at a time....And take as much time as I need to sort this all out.....I'm just really glad that I got the insurance because this time I'm not messing around......I can't live like this anymore and I need to find the right place and people.

Kudos to you, congratulations, what a great attitude.  I am so glad you have accepted that you need help and you are going to get it.

That is why we are here. Support groups are a place for people to give and receive both emotional and practical support as well as to exchange information. People with health conditions, as well as their friends and families find support groups to be a valuable resource and get confirmation that their feelings are "normal", educate others, or just let off steam.

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Hugs

Kitt