introducing myself

This is very hard because I would like to keep it brief. First of all, from the posts I have already read it does not sound like I am in any way alone. I guess misery loves company, huh? I have been taking meds for depression and other problems for a very long time. I am 40 yrs. old and can only see things going down hill. In and out of depression for as long as I can remember. Most people who meet me would never expect that I feel the way I do. I guess we all know how the world would like us to be. Smile, act polite, be positive, look happy.... It is becoming harder and harder to keep up the front. I guess I am looking for support and people who understand that depression is real and even debilitating at times and sometimes there are not clear answers as to why or how to fix these problems. Mostly I feel desperate, stressed and agitated.

I hope for the best for all people here and out there. May good thoughts and happy feelings fill you all.

Thank you. I actually thought I was posting on the introduction thread but I see that I was wrong. I will try to move it over soon. Again, thank you for the welcome.

No, that is fine. I should put it in the right place. You are kind and I feel welcome. I just posted over on the intro thread (I think). You are welcome to get rid of this one if you can. I have not checked to see if I can delete it.

Hugs back to you.

Heej 4ever,

Nope, you are not alone. I think a lot of us here on HW tend to put on our "happy faces". There are few who can see through that mask. Once I finally opened up and told others I was depressed, they were in fact shocked as they though I was one of the happiest kids in school. Even when I felt everyone would had noticed my sadness, they only saw the face I was wearing.
With this, I want to illustrate how hard it is for others to know how you feel. There are so much wonderful people out there that are willing to lend you a helping hand, give you a hug, or help you in any other way. But our faces tend to be so good that they never see we need help. So maybe it is time for us to put down those masks, show them who we really are. Then we shall experience the love and compassion that is out there.

You could see it as a magnet. Negative attracts positive, but our "positive" happy faces in fact repels positive from others. Not because they don't want to share it, but because they never realize we need it.

4ever, feel free to write more about you and open up to the world!

Have a wonderful day!
Erik

Eric what a great post.Its part of what I was trying to say in my post.Nobody but my family was awear that I was depressed except my family and even though thay new thay had no idea how bad it was untel I hurt my self.This forum is so great because we can come and talk to other people just like us who will really understand.So to 4ever I am happy that you found this forum so that you can talk to people just like you(like me).I hope you will find alot of people tp connect with.When you are down it helps to post on this forum.