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Posted 12/12/2008 3:10 PM (GMT 0)
hi everyone, this is my first post and I'm basically telling my life story.

anyway I should start with that I am only 13. My name is James. I am very sad/angry/pissed off and all the emotions right now... about 6 hours from now (2:04am) so about 7-8pm EST on Friday I was told I had a half sister. And this had been kept from me for 6 months. I never see my dad but he had my phone number and email address and what does he do??? NOTHING

Im so pissed off and angry and everything confused I'm so confused with everything right now, and I'm prubably gunna get kept down and repeat ****ing year 7 AGAIN. So.. and I know this sounds stupid but the only thing keeping me together now.. well 2 things are.. in 10 days I'm getting a xbox 360 and 2nd I wana stay around to watch my little sister grow up. I feel like going to a .. cry if anyone can help me I would be very grateful. I'm often up late crying at my pillow I'm such a wuss. and also I find myself buying 2 litres of Pepsi and drinking it in less then an hour. It's like a drug addiction... I can't get enough and I wana be fit and I run around a lot but I could die from drinking to much and I don't want to die... If aanybody gets me please please please help me. Im very depressed and evrything.

from James (Instinct_of_Death - DeathAngel)

Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 12/12/2008 11:18:53 AM (GMT-7)

Posted 12/12/2008 3:38 PM (GMT 0)
Hi James,

You sound very confused right now. Are you depressed because of finding out you had a sister or were you feeling depressed before that? Keep thinking of the positive things that you mentioned, and try and think of more positives and not focus so much on the negative things.

I think the caffine in pepsi is addictive so try just cutting down slowly!

Maybe you could try seeing a counsellor at your school or something, that could help you - it's good to talk to someone who is non judgemental, or can you talk to your Mum?
Posted 12/12/2008 3:43 PM (GMT 0)
Yeah I am. I've been trying to find online counselling stuff for about 3 hours now but there is nothing with live chat that you dont have to pay for. I'm sick of putting in free then it coming up with 'speacial offers' I dont have a ****ing credit card. Im just a kid. and I wanna talk to my mum but not really. COs ummm. I dunno she won't jdge me but I dont feel like she is the right one to talk about it with. so do you know any sites wth free counselling online chat stuff? if you do plz tell me :)
Posted 12/12/2008 4:37 PM (GMT 0)
Can you talk to your school social worker or counselor?
Posted 12/12/2008 6:19 PM (GMT 0)
Instinct_of_Death

Welcome to HealingWell and I am sorry your Father did not feel you had a right to know about your 1/2 sister.  I understand your pain. 

Your post is full of anger.  Anger is a natural human emotion.

It is when this anger is not controlled that we get into trouble so please don’t let your anger consume you. Let go of the anger.  I would really like to see you try to talk to your Mum and also did she know and not tell you. If she did then you may stay calm and ask her why, explaining to her your pain of feeling left out.

Here is a link that may be able to give you info on finding online help that is free.

Keep talking to us.

National Youth Crisis Hotline 800-448-4663

Sincerely

Kitt

 

Posted 12/12/2008 6:23 PM (GMT 0)
Hi James,

I am sorry that I had to edit your post but we are not allowed to talk about suicide.

You don't need a credit card yet. You have to be able to pay those bills. Somebody has to. Do you have a job? If you have a job maybe then your mom will let you get one. Most of the offers are rip offs anyway. Believe me.

You sound like you are really trying hard. I am sorry that they kept your half sister a secret. But now you have the chance to watch her grow up and that is a blessing. So take it from there and forget about the past.

You are not a wuss. It takes a lot of guts to admit that you cried. And you did that. We are all only human and we have emotions. It is better to let it out than take it out in another way.

I hope that this helps you some. Stay with us. We are here to help you. And I think that Confusedli has a good input by mentioning a therapist. We all need one from time to time.

Everybody here has dealt or is dealing with depression so you can learn a lot here. You are young and resiliant. You will do well in life. You have a very mature way of looking at things and you will go far.

Like I say, stick with us. We are all here for you.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 12/13/2008 12:39 PM (GMT 0)
Dear James,

Please e-mail this psychiatrist called Dr. Sudersanan at [email protected]. He is an Indian psychiatrist and he has been counseling me for one year. He will talk to you for free and refer you to a psychologist or a social worker who can offer you free counseling in the future. I hope this helps.

Sheeba
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