Ben,
Good Morning. I am sorry to read you are feeling so down. I am wondering why the CBT is taking so long? It seems like you have been on the list for 5 months or more. I know you talked of being on the list when you were skiing in the winter.
I really would like to see you try the online CBT to get you by until you do the face to face.
I know how awful it feels to be feeling good for awhile and then you hit a road bump so please know that I am here for you.
You will get through this. Depression is a disorder we have to keep working through and you, my friend, are in good company.
Hugs
Kitt