Feeling Stuck

Haven't been on the forum for a couple of weeks but need support perhaps encouragement.... The past two weeks I have become violently sick off and on. I will feel fine for most of the day and then all of a sudden I will have numbness in my ear nausea spinning of the room and then sweating then I end up vomiting and feeling bad for a couple of days. I just went to the doctor because i have had two episodes of it and I did blood tests and just got an MRI today. In my mind I am trying to keep things rationale that it is only a precaution that they are taking but then there is this fear deep seeded fear of what else could it be??? It has made me realize how sad my life is how empty it has become. No matter what I do I still feel stuck. I feel stuck in my relationships as sparse as they are, feel stuck in therapy in exercising.
These episodes of sickness have gotten me in a bit of a funk and have had me question why I still feel so empty alone and insignificant. I feel like I am doing everything that professionals suggest but feel like it feels useless. I know I have come far from where I have been but I feel so unhappy. I feel alone and misunderstood lately I feel that way in therapy as well. I know it is one day at a time. I just feel so distant from everyone it is hard to be real when deep inside you feel so sad....

Sometimes it is so hard to be myself when I am in this dark place.... Anyway I feel like I am rambling..... Thanks for listening

cloudy, hang in there. please advise if i can be of help. we care. with loving compassion. jamie