i need help with controling my manic behaviour...... help!!!!!!!!!!!

The only thing that I can think of beverly is to calm your thoughts down. Maybe focus on your breathing and slow your heart rate down some with some calm breathing. In through the nose and out through the mouth. Called smelling the roses and blowing out the candles. But Beverly, I wonder if somebody on the bi polar forum could help you more than I could. Maybe you should ask this question there.

you need to slow down your mind though. Find something that you can concentrate to get your mind off of other things. Focus on tv or read in a quiet room. Put on some relaxing music. I think that you will find that slowing yourself down will bring you to an even plane. Otherwise you are going to be facing highs and lows.

I hope that you can get this under control.

Hugs, Karen

Beverley,

Take some of your valium if you haven't yet and try to do some things which are calming but which also use a little energy up: taking a walk. Write in a journal. Nothing too "triggering" like cleaning or anything self-damaging.

If you are bipolar, or if you think you are having a manic episode (it's lasted a couple of days, it's been building, worsening) then you need to call your doc and let them know. This is important because if you are bipolar and truly having mania, you shouldn't be on an anti-depressant alone. Anti-depressants alone can actually worsen mania. (That doesn't mean you should stop taking it!!!) In order to calm mania you need other classes of drugs entirely. If this just sprung on you today, your anxiety may be at a fever pitch, and again your doc can help with that.

Until you talk to your doc and get this straightened out, there are a couple things you can do. Try to only engage in calming, fulfulling activities (like cooking or baking, maybe) and avoid triggering ones (like being around your family.) If thinking or hearing about your daughter is distressing you, then avoid it. Stay in your room and try to calm yourself by writing, drawing, reading a book. If you can't sit still, try getting out of the house. I like to go walk around my local department store and not buy anything, just look. I go to the library or bookstore. I go to the local cafe for a change of scene. I go to the park and listen to the birds.

Finally, try to get to bed at a reasonable time tonight and get some good sleep. Sleep disturbances exacerbate stress and definitely mania, so try to get to bed and sleep.

I hope this is helpful and you feel better soon.

Take care of yourself,
serafena

hi Serafena and Jamiee,

How are u both?? Hope all is going well for the both of you?? Thankyou for the reply's there are some great tip's for me to try. I have also been working everyday this week and 2morrow is my big job cleaning a 110 sq ft home for a young couple who are very wealthy,but Frida that's her name she also has an ileostomy and has chronic athritis and cant hardly even walk so im loving it but the work is very hard being such a huge home to clean. Anyway that's my problem. Is it possible that because im out all day lately working then i come home do more house work,

washing,ironing ect!!! I literally dont stop lately and could that make me even worse than i am. Do i slow down or just keep going like i am.

I cant wind down at night, when i go to bed my mind just races and i cry myslef to sleep every night. I feel STRANGE like im not in control??

Ive had manic episodes before but not like this. I feel invinsible like nothing or no one can touch me!!!! But am still crying all the time to. So very confusing to feel this way. Everything i do i do really fast it's like im a hyperactive 3yr old who's had to much

RED Cordial?????   I have to get to my Doc A>S>A>P.........

Also ive taken a valium about an hour ago and am still fully hyper??

Thanks again for ur reply's,

ur so very kind all of you,

damagedgoods41.....

hello Frances_2008,

 

Thankyou kindly for ur reply to me. I know that i have to see my pdoc a.s.a.p. but at the moment im so busy with my new business that im not even getting a day when i can even go and see him. Also because ive taken on some new client's i cant turn down any work as they wont want me back again if im not reliable. Like 2day i left at 7.30am and have just walked through the door at 4.45pm and my doc has gone home by then so i dont know what else to do in that respect. I was also on a medication for bi-polar last time i was in the Pshyc Unit but it made me very ill with side effects so i stopped taking it and have never asked my pdoc for anything as he doesn't know i stopped it!! I know that im very manic at this time and i hate it. it scares me as im out of control. The money i earn each day im spending like it's going out of fashion,full on energy to the point that i cant wind down at all. Ive tried to read,listen to music,write in my journal ect!!! NOTHING>>>>

 

Thankyou again Frances,

 

damaged.........  xxxxx

 hi Frances,

 

The medications that i was on were SEROQUEL & CYMBALTA but between the both of them i became very ill.  and the seroquel just made me nod off all the time i used to fall asleep in my food,spill my hot drinks on me as all i did was nod all the time and the cymbalta made me shake my ileostomy was constant watery output it blurred my vision,no sleep and nausea to the point that i had to stop!! Do you know much about abilify?? I have asked my G>P> about it and he say's that he need's an authority to supply it to me so what;s the problem with him doing that for me?? My diagnoses was bi-polar11 when i was in the pshyc unit last year and prior to that when they also said i had o.c.d!! I have some cymbalta here at home that i had stopped tsking do u think i should try them again and see how i cope with them this time around??? Anyone's input re this would be much appreciated.

 

Thanks again,

 

damagedgoods41........   Thats how i look to like my eye's are bolging out of my head!!!!!

 

 

Karen i forgot to ask you if you know anything about smoking you know what?? M******** just a night time. Does it make you worse or does it really help?? My brother has given me some to try so i can sleep and try and slow myself down. What do you think. Does it make ur depression any worse. I dont know about this kind of stuff.

Thanks again,

damaged................... BIG TIME>>>>>>>

Dear Karen, Hw are you?? Doing well I hope. And how's work going for you?? Keeping busy i hope. Thanks again for the reply. Hopefully i may be able to see my pdoc on Monday coming, but not confirmed as yet. The sooner the better as i cant go like this anymore as it's ruining my "life". The worst part is being so high but so so low at the same time.

And my anger is getting so much worse which is totally out of my character. I'm normally cool,calm and collective. I went to see my Grandaughter Tahlia 2day for the day and it was lovely we had a great time, but i was snapping at her to and i feel terrible for doing so. I did say sorry to her an tried to explaine that Nanny is not to well at the moment and i didn't mean to snap. It's hard to tell a 3yr old how ur feeling. Also when i picked her up i was talking to Jessica who is Tahlia's

Auntie as she has been looking after Tahlia for the last 2 yrs on and off.

She is the legal carer at the moment until  go to court an apply. Anyway when i saw Jess i thought Wow she look's sick and i thought she looked pregnant then Jess said to me I have some bad news Bev "OVARIAN CANCER" well im totally devestated as she is only 32yrs old and loves Tahlia like she's her own!! So now my lans for moving to Englnd have come to a stop as i will be having custody of Tahlia and Jesse's son who is only 5yrs old is going to her Parent's while they try and sae her but she's left it so late.. I cant coe with this to at the moment as everything just goes so wrong not only for me but Jess and other stuff. It's just to much to take in. I only lost a close friend last year from suicied and she was 37 and im still grieving her loss to. How do I cope with all this as i dont feel strong enough at this time.  ??????????????????????????

Take care Karen,

tahnks for letting me vent again.....

damaged.......   xxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi Beverly,

I am saying prayers for youn that this will all work out.  Can't you take her with you when you move?  Maybe you don't have to go all the way to England, just get a nice peaceful place of your own.  That way she could still see her daughter under supervision of course. 

I am sorry to hear about Jess.  But hopefully they can get the cancer out.  And she will be fine.  She is in my prayers right now.  Have faith sweetheart, this will all be okay.  One day at a time, you need to take care of you first.  Then the rest will fall into place, you don't want to be responsible for your granddaughter until you get yourself situated.  Being bipolar is hard.  And you said that you were short with her.  So get yourself taken care of first and then go from there.  This is very important for you right now.  You want to be even tempered when you have her.  And dont' worry about her going into foster care.  Once you take care of you, you will be able to handle the rest.  I have faith in you my friend.

I hope that your day goes better.  ONe day at a time, don't forget that.  One moment at a time when we need to. 

Be good to yourself.  I will talk to you again soon.

Luv and hugs, Karen

Hello Karen & Frances,

I have just read ur reply's and yes your both so very correct in what i have to do with getting myself back onto my mood stablizers and get some councelling. Frances im so sorry that ur childhood was so terribly bad for u with ur Mother having bi-polar. It must have been so very hard for you growing up with all of that going on and yes i can understand what your telling me in regard's to me having to say "no" to my client's as i wont be any good to them,Tahlia,Jess and everyone else in my life. I know that im out of control at this time and i have to get the HELP i deserve and need. Also sorry about mentioning the M word on the forum that was not a good thing for me to ask. SORRY KAREN. And Karen u know how you said i will come crashing down,well it's starting to happen NOW as all i can do at the minute is just sob and i cant stop. I hate to feel like this,it's like you have no control of ur whole being!!! And yes im very sad about Jessica as she deserves a good life but again life has given her another "cruel blow". Jess has also had a very hard life she is a single mom of a 5yr old Matthew and i just a very kind, and special person and if anything does happen it will break my heart and TAHLIA"S as she adores Jess??? I also dont know what to say to her at this time as she is so scared about dying from this... What do you say to a beatuiful person who will most probarly die very young!!!

Im not a very religious person but last night when i went to bed i actually asked "if there is a god could you please help Jessica to stay alive and live a long life" it's the very first time that i have said a prayer for anyone.  Life's just very cruel at times.  Anyway Frances i will most certainly take ur great advise and do what you have suggested to me otherwise it's just going to get much worse. I even said to my mom thismorning while i was sobbing that i have to get to my doc in the morning bacause the way im heading i will be back in the Pshyc Unit again and i dont want that.  Thanks again for letting me vent. And again thx to both of you for ur continues "SUPPORT AND UNDERSTANDING".

I Hope you both have a great day/night!!!

sincerely,

damaged......

Hi Beverly,

I got all my wreaths and swags up to the animal shelter today.  So that is over.  They were going out the door before I could get them hung up.  I was happy to see that.  This whole thing makes me feel so good. 

Now to you, Beverly, you sure do have a lot on your plate right now.  I think that you should write down everything that is going on and talk to your doctor about it all.  Let him know that you have been manic, and then you crash.  Let him know that you will most likely be having the little ones come to live with you and you want to have your moods stabilized.  I too had a manic mother and it was scarey to me, but she was mean.  And it was truly horrible, it effected me for years.  So you definately want your moods stabilized.  Mention abilify, that is what I take, it is really good for me, maybe it would be for you too.  But I was taking risperdal. It was good too, but I gained wieght on it.  Though that doesn't mean that you would.  I guess everybody is different. 

I just know that you need to get on an even keel.  IF I spelled that right.  You know what I mean.  In the middle I guess.  You are a good woman.  And I know that you are a good grandmother.  Raising these kids is going to take everything that you have.  It will be a challenge, but it will work out.  And it is a blessing that they have you.  But you want to have your moods under control and your energy level well level.  You should be able to still work, and hopefully get some help from the government for what you are doing.  This could all be a blessing in disguise.  Something that was meant to be.

I think it is going to work out wonderful.  Keep us posted on what is going on.  And don't be paying much attention to what your mom or dad has to say about it.  Your mind is made up.  I think the government will also help you with houseing.  You don't have to move far, but plan on moving out.  This is for you and the grandchildren...

A new start...

Know my thoughts and prayers are with you all right now, especially Jessica, for healing.  And again I will mention that if you ever want to, email me.  My address is in my profile.  Please, feel free to. 

I hope that you have a good night/day.  Go easy on yourself, breathe, and think good thoughts.  Write if you want, I will be up for a while anyways. 

Take care,

Hugs, Karen

Beverly,

I am so happy for you. Computer messing up again, so this will be short. Keep your chin up. You will get through this. And we are here to help you.

Hugs, Karen

Hi there Beverly,

I am so happy that your business is going well for you.  That is wonderful.  I am sure that it keeps you busy.  You must do a really good job because so many people want you.  Word of mouth is good advertisement. 

I wonder if your loopiness will go away over time.  Maybe it is just a side effect and will change in a couple of weeks.  I am glad that you are back on the meds, no more highs and then crash and burning.    Try to stay on them as long as you can tolerate it.  I know it is hard, especially when you are use to having all that energy.  But it gets bad in the long run and you want to be on an even keel.  I think that is the right word.

Dharma is doing better.  She pooped yesterday and it was normal.  Not a lot, she hasn't been eating much.  But I was so happy.  I know that she is old and I will eventually lose her, but I am just not ready yet.  Both of them are old.  I have had them for a long time.  It is hard when they get to that age.  They have their bad days I guess just like we do.  I am gradually going to to up with her food.  I don't want to feed her too much since she wasn't eating anything at all for days.  Her poor tummy couldn't take it.  But she will get a little more today.  Thanks for caring.  That means a lot to me.

I hope that your day goes well, I know that yours starts much earlier than mine, I even think you are a day ahead of me.  At least you don't get snow.  It hasn't snowed here yet, that is wierd.  But it will, it is inevitable (sp).  We have long winters here.  It can really get to a person. 

Well, I hope that you are feeling better and that the medications work.  Did she say anything about the abilify?  Did you ask her?  It would be nice if you could try it.  But maybe it isn't for you.  It isn't for all people.  And it can be expensive I guess. 

Take care, write again soon.  Well, when you can.

Hugs, Karen