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Posted 11/23/2009 3:01 AM (GMT 0)
I feel like I'm always living my life in pain. I'm always afraid of tomorrow. Would I be alone again tomorrow? I'm so scared because I don't have the answers to my future. If only there was a meter where it told me how much I was from being not alone then I would keep trying until I meet that expectation.
Tomorrow there's a school trip and all my friends are going except for one. I know I could find her at her locker as soon as lunch starts but I feel so scared to do it.
I'm always so scared to be alone and I don't know what to do.
Posted 11/23/2009 3:28 AM (GMT 0)
Hi depression_here,

I want to give you some general support; a few things are unclear from your post:

1`Are you not going on the trip tomorrow? Why not?
2. Why are you afraid of talking to your friend?

Are you seeing a counselor or therapist at the moment? Having someone non-threatening to talk to is so useful. How about a doctor? Is anyone treating your depression?

serafena
Posted 11/23/2009 3:40 AM (GMT 0)
1. I'm not going on the trip tomorrow because I'm not taking the curriculum for the trip.
2. I don't know. I feel that she and I are starting to have a distance between us. I get scared and all that. She was like my closest friend because she was the one I'd always go to when I'm having problems but now, she's made a new friend and they're really close and I guess I'm self-conscious or something.
I've always been vain because I have eczema so I'm always scared people would look at me differently and I've always been pale and pink-ish because of it and stuff.

I'm not seeing one. I've told my mom about it. She says she'll go to the doctor to get me a slip for the phyciatrist if I wanted one to help me. No, I don't really have anyone I can go when I have these feelings so I just let it out by myself.
Posted 11/23/2009 3:48 AM (GMT 0)
Hi depression_here,

I think talking to a psych might be useful. Even if you decide not to treat anything right now, having some professional input could be really helpful. You might think about talking to your school counselor or psychologist as well. They can let you know about resources for teens in your area.

Muster up the courage and talk to your friend tomorrow. If it helps, think about a few topics you can discuss in advance, so if there are any pauses in the conversation you'll have some ideas about how to fill them in. That will help you feel more confident. Remember, this person is your friend -- even if she is talking with someone else too. She enjoys your company. Let her know you'd still like to spend time with her. Propose a movie night or something else low-key. She may be feeling uncertain about your relationship too, but that doesn't mean she doesn't like you anymore.

I hope this is helpful. You can do it!

serafena
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