Letting some of it out...

Thank you guys for all your understanding.
I will go talk to someone in time, but it wont be my parents (We're just not like that)
The first person I want to talk to about this is my boyfriend, I can't talk to him and he doesn't seem to care, It hurts so much for him not to see me crying when its literally right infront of him seeing as I am always there for him in his darkest hours. He doesn't seem to care or want to and I feel like such a desperate person clinging on to him for survival unwilling to let go because I'm terrified I'll have nothing or noone left if I do. I feel so small, pethetic, I don't know who I am anymore. I want the old me back, strong stubern and smart. What the hell is wrong with me?

Hi there,

Just want you to know that you will find support here. I can't write much, I have to get ready for work, but wanted to pop in and say hello.

I hope that things are going better for you now.

Hugs, karen