I'm new to this website.
And I feel a little selfish just jumping on without looking to see what other peoples problems are and how petty mine might really be.
But I guess I just don't really know how to deal anymore and I feel like I'm going to put a burden on myself, my boyfriend and our child if I don't figure out how to help myself. I'm pretty sure I know what's wrong, I'm just not sure how to deal with it.
I'm 21, my boyfriend is 25 and our daughter will be 6 months old this month. We were only together for 2 months when I found out I was pregnant. We have the whole married life, without the marriage.
So basically, I've never really had anyone to help me out, my parents weren't really parents, and I've always pushed away anyone who's tried to get close. The only reason I feel like I've made it this far with my boyfriend now is because we have a child together. He's a great guy, but he's not perfect. I just don't really feel like I'll ever be good enough for him or my little girl, even though I know that they're the best things to ever happen to me. There are a lot of times I just start thinking about my mom and I just clam up. I'm too stubborn to talk about it. That's when he thinks I get mad at him, but really, it's not him. I just dont know where to start looking for help. Not to mention I dont ever feel like I'm well rested. I'm ALWAYS tired, but I just deal with it anyway.
Maybe it's some kind of chronic fatigue that's making it hard to deal with my life from day to day, or maybe it's anxiety, or maybe it's depression.
I really just want to get rid of the demons in my life and move on to having a more wonderful life for my family. Like everyone else knows, it's easier said than done.
If anyone can help me and give me some good advice, that's all I'm really looking for.