I notice that if I were to walk/jog outside, it helps me feel better (jogging outside actually brings me more stimulation and brings me to life). But if I were to walk/jog on the treadmill or do any form of exercise in one spot, it has a severe mental drain on me and I feel that there is nothing left of me and I will feel complete nothingness. This severe mental drain also causes horrible nightmares. I'm not sure what it is about
walking/jogging outside that makes me feel better--is it the fact that I'm outside and I get positive stimulation from the moving environment, as opposed to walking/jogging in one place on the treadmill? If so, should I continue doing exercises in one place anyway in the hopes that this severe mental drainage will go away on its own, or will that only make it worse?
Now if I were to feel mentally drained from exercising in one spot, I can go outside and run fast to get me out of that state. But if I were to be driven around in the car, that does not get me out of that state (despite the fact that there is much more movement in the environment when driving). So what is it about
exercising in one place that drains me, while outside it helps me?
Now I have absolutely no feelings, no enjoyment, and no motivation whatsoever when working out on equipment (treadmill and lifting weights). When I do it, it is very hard for me to continue because my mood of just wanting to quit sets in quickly. But I still continue anyway. Therefore, could this be the source of this severe mental drainage--since feelings are what give us energy to work out, and that since I feel nothing, it just takes a mental toll on me? I do not feel physically drained, however--only mentally.
Now if I were to continue doing this anyway, draining my mental energy everyday, would that give me more mental energy (because in order to gain more energy, you first have to lose it), or would that just make me worse?
Post Edited (Matt77) : 5/15/2010 9:39:48 PM (GMT-6)