Defeated

I made it through the lumbar puncture procedure. The results as to whether I have MS or some other condition will take 2 weeks. I figure that since I want to know so badly that they will take their time getting the results. I had to lay flat on my back without a pillow for a 24 hour period. When you can't sleep, that's not fun at all.

The sad part of it all is that I have no close family or friends. My housekeeper's husband actually drove me to and from the hospital. She brought me dinner that night. I really am so tired of living right now.

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Guys- I'm trying my best. But I sit here and realize that my heart is no longer in life anymore. I can't bring myself to work when I'm at work. I have no close family. The lack of nightly sleep due to the headaches has gone on for 4 months now. I enjoy Saturdays because I can lay down on the couch all day in a dark room and just stare at the wall. I may not sleep but it's so quiet and dark and the AC keeps the room cool.

I've made a decision to try and hang on til they give me my diagnosis, but then I've got to tell them I need some kind of treatment to help the headache so I can sleep and get my mental faculties back. I'm even looking into medical disability. I've worked ever since I was 18, and never taken a handout. It would be a change from the life I have lived up til now, but right now, I'm not living.

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It's just unconscionable that you've not been given any kind of sleep aid.

No wonder you''re feeling so hopeless. Hang in there knowing that your diagnosis will be coming soon.

No sleep is bad enough. The pain of a headache besides would drive any person insane. There's no way you can be thinking in a positive way when you feel like that.

I'm sure my headache has never been as bad as what you're experiencing, but it did keep me sleepless for a long time, but fortunately I had a sympathetic  MD. Also a sleep study which showed alpha wave intrusion due to pain. My sleep doctor put me on ambien and I've been on it for a year. I have the headache to some degree most of the time.

Hope after diagnosis and treatment, the disability won't be necessary.

So sorry to hear there's no diagnosis or solution yet.

Have they ruled out MS? Has the headache remained the same all this time?

I hope Mayo has a fast turnaround time on their tests.

Prayers and thoughts go out for you!

 

You know, in my case i'm forbidden to make friends, because of my parents. Friends, you need to find the good ones! Remember you live for so much more than just to make friends. Getting back stabbed and stuff is just an obstacle in life. Don't feel bad, be happy for what you got. try working out before it's too late! live ur life to the fullest in a healthy way ;D Fun comes with responsibility. I'm going through my own problems right now, and grasp every good chance you have. Your an adult you should know what to do with ur life. you live for so much more then to love a gurl to make friends. but to live for others. ;)
It'll take time* what's holding you back? haha..
*good luck*

sorry, i'm not the best reader. but yup. I'm still young and i can talk to counselors for free. *pretty much*
Hey have you ever heard of the "dalson macalester live show?" you call in with ur ANYTHING situation. you can either talk to him while it is live on radio or you can talk to his assitance and employees... =) have hope ;D