I don't like feeling like this....

We can all relate to your feelings and we do understand.  Just know that it takes four to six weeks for your medications to start working.  And counseling takes time too.  It wont happen over night, but you are doing all the right things to try and get help.  So don't give up.

Coming here is a good thing.  As I said, we all understand.  It seems that people who don't have depression don't understand at all.  Well, they don't know what we are going through. 

I must say that my depression has been in remission for well over a year since I have been taking medications and going to therapy.  So like I said, Don't give up!  Things will gradually start to get better.  You are on the right track.

Keep posting and know that we do care.

Hugs, Karen

Maybe you could take some time out of your relationship and step back and get an objective view.  Having problems with depression makes it so we can't see clearly.  But often we blame ourselves when it isn't us at all.  And other times it is the way that we are thinking that is messing us up.  Do you think your boyfriend would go for a time out?  Is it that you don't trust him?  Or is it more of a self esteem issue?   Is he abusive in any way?  Just thought I would ask. 

Keep posting.  Know that we will help you as much as we can.  There aren't always a lot of people here on the weekends, but it is busy during the week.  So I might be the only one answering you right now, but I do check the forum often so I will reply.

I hope that you feel better soon.

Hugs, Karen

If you can't trust him, then there is nothing there.  But relationships can grow so see what happens.  But remember school first, then you and then him.  I think as long as you keep trying, things are going to work out.  That has always worked for me.  But I too ignore problems and hope that they go away.  So I don't know what to say about that.  I just don't deal with it.  I know that sounds stupid, but it works out for me.  Eventually the time will come when it is right in my face and then I deal with it.  But as long as it is nothing too important, it can sit on the back burner.  I found I use to take life way too seriously.  So I am laid back now, for the most part. 

I hope that things work out.  Remember to talk to a school counselor and get that in order.  You might as well get this over with and then it will stop bothering you.  Just try to think of what you would enjoy doing with your life the most.  And go from there.

Good luck, keep posting.

Hugs, Karen