Hi All Seasons,
Being this is a family oriented forum, I don't think that this is an appropriate topic. I am sorry. But I think this would be best discussed with your counselor. We have children as young as 13 on the forum and I think this is an unappropriate topic for that age. If there is anything else that you would like to discuss feel free.
I am sorry that we can't help you with this.
Hugs, Karen
Do know that there is a huge difference in having fantasies and acting apon them.