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Posted 8/16/2010 3:37 PM (GMT 0)
I am currently being treated for mild to moderate depression but my dad was recently admitted to the hospital for leukemia. I was pretty optimistic and positive about getting over the depression and took a lot of good steps toward getting over it until my dad was put in the hospital. **Potential trigger** Then I started to think "What's the point?," what's the point of trying to get over the depression? Even if I am happy, things are going to suck. I'm not normally like this but this thought is parading through my head and I can't get it out. Now my anxiety is making me worried that I might be suicidal. I don't think I am truly suicidal but I am very very afraid of becoming suicidal. Am I just anxious? I'm scared here.. very very scared.
Posted 8/16/2010 4:17 PM (GMT 0)
Sounds like anxiety over your father. Try to stay strong for him. Take each day one day at a time right now. You might want to visit the anxiety forum to see if they have any coping skills for you. If you try to focus on keeping your father calm, this could help you. Do things with him if you can to take up some of his time. Do they have a prognosis yet?

I hope that you feel better soon. Get those bad thoughts out of your head. Like I said, one day at a time right now.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 8/17/2010 4:31 AM (GMT 0)
Karen,

Hanging out with my dad at the hospital has been pretty rewarding. We talked more than we ever do and we actually played games together which is very very rare. I've noticed that when the anxiety loosens its grip I can be happy (ish). I guess I might have to get treatment for that AND my anxiety which is going to complicate it but I feel truly blessed with the time I'm getting to spend with my dad and I'm still pretty optimistic considering that my dad is gonna be out of work for 6 months and we might lose the house.

Do you know of people that are being treated for depression that experience life-altering events during their treatment? Do you think that complicates things?
Posted 8/17/2010 5:04 AM (GMT 0)
Karen,

I have been through similar kind of situation before. My dad got cancer when I was in grade 9, this whole thing just suddenly happen, my mom was having depression and i got 2 little sisters to care about. Spending more time with your dad can help, since you can spend more time taking care of him and share each other's feeling. Also, talk about your anxiety with more people can also give you different point of view. Talk to friends, someone you know, psychologist, the more you share you feeling, the better you feel because we always think to worse situation when we were alone. Don't forget people in this forum will always support you.

xxx
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