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Hey so sadly to say I'm back. Although I know I was only here once before I've noticed that I try not to come on here unless I feel absolutely like I need to. Or am feeling so low that I know I should. It's not so much what anyone's done. It's just..., basically me dealing with a lot of internal conflict. My mom is still looking for a doctor since the one we were suppose to have isn't taking new patients. I'm just feeling soo low about myself. I actually wrote a note on facebook just yesturday because I was so upset and needed to vent my feelings. I just feel like I can't talk to my friends or anyone. Everyday when I goto BB and I see -most- everyone talking/laughing/playing/joking around and like I'm one of the few just sitting there watching or w/e I just feel.. completely alone Idk how to explain it. But I'm just so sick of feeling bad about myself. Like practically everyday this school week I've ended up feeling horrible before the day was over. I guess my problems aren't soo much as bad stuff that happens to me it's more like I have no self confidence/self-esteem so when semi-bad stuff happens to me it feels humongous. Lately, these last few days, besides the whole no confidence/shy issue, I've been trying to deal with how I feel when I'm at BB. When I'm there and I see everyone else..idk being outgoing? It makes me feel so left out. Grr this is so hard to explain in short terms. But if anyone wants to read those 2 notes on FB then I can give ya the link, it can explain this a lot better. Right now I'm just like... so it's kinda hard to explain.

Oh BB is my theater company. I mean I think I'm dealing with much more internal conflict instead of external? If that makes any kind of sense. It's just so hard to put into words that's why when I wrote the facebook note it ended up being this huge paragraph cause I'm not sure how to explain it short and simple. I do wanna do counseling it's just the problem of money. That's the major issue, at least for me, to be able to express how I feel.
Well could I take a look at some of the teen sites? Anything at the moment would be of great help.

Thanks! I have actually been taking the moodgym for about a week now. I read about it on here somewhere and I try to get on once every few days that way when I take one of the quizzes I have a few days of how I felt to go off of. I'd really like to call one of them hotlines it's just I'm not exactly sure what I'd say so it just makes me feel iffy about those.