My depression is hurting me

Hara,

You are not dying but going through a tough time. I often feel like I've been cursed, and feel like a failure. I also have some hard times when I don't see the light....but in the end I refuse to just give up. I wanna try everything I can to be "happy". I want to overcome my depression and just be in the moment.  You can do this too.

There are many resources out there to help you if you start to look for them.  Network with other people.  If your mentor/friend has a new job be happy for your friend.

I wish you peace.

Look up Social Services and call them. Maybe you can get a Social Worker to help you (with the county). They know the ins and outs of these things. After all, unemployment is sky high, in which you also lose your family med insurance. People are losing their homes. They go somewhere, I don't see families wandering around "lost" and sick in the streets. I think the homeless are beyond help in that they have severe mental disorders. Even they go to the nearest ER for treatment when in crisis. I recently read this is happening in Phoenix and is a huge problem since there is insufficient mental health care available and its costing the hospitals a fortune. But they do provide free care in an emergency.
There's got to be an answer.
Does your previous employer have other jobs? Can you get in at the place your friend works? How did she get that job? Having a mentor is great, but doesn't go on forever. You have to go it on your own eventually.
You're in a tuff place and I don't envy you.
Don't lose heart, keep on keepin' on, to quote Jaimee
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Oh, that's so sweet, a Rescue Toy Mission. I'd like that. And you painted, great !
Still hope you check out social service.
Where did your mentor friend go to work? It won't hurt to give her a call now and then, see how she's doing.
Are your SSI friends making you feel good, or is it additionally discouraging?

Smurfy, such good advice.

There is a place online, Free Meds, also Prescription Assistance. Someone on another forum mentioned that there are great discount cards, probably matters where you live, available, and also know from personal experience that the pharmacy has leaflets about this with 800 #s. Somethings gotta work if you have no income or ins.

Sorry to hear things aren't going so well.

Are you desperate? I would be desperate, and making some calls. They have answering services. And this is why. Sometimes people have emergencies.

They squeeze patients in when this happens. There would be a doctor on call. Its OK, don't be embarrassed.

Who's with you? Can you get their cooperation in helping you tonight?

Do you have an urgent care?

Yes, ER is an option. But not what I meant.
In my area there are lots of Urgent Care facilities, outshoots of hospitals in every community. The wait isn't as long there, and it isn't as crowded. Nice when you can't get an appt with a doc, have no doc, new to town, whatever, because they see you, prescribe and can usually tell you a doc to continue with, if you want to. Or you can just always go back there as often as you like. Not for continuing psychiatric care, but one time you might have strep throat, the next time an ear ache, need stitches, anything.
In July I got very dizzy and unbalanced. Husband took me to Urgent Care. They did a lot of tests, thorough physical, gave me an IV and an antibiotic because my white count was a little high, and they thought it was an inner ear infection that might be effecting balance. Also an IV, They made me come back the next day and repeat the blood test to see if the antibiotic was effective.
If they can't handle it, they send you elsewhere. My son was there and passed out, was unconscious, and they had an ambulance pick him up. Another time he had a severe allergic reaction, and they sent him to the ER for an IV and IV meds. My daughter went for anxiety attacks, they prescribed Effexor, and she followed up with a GP. So, they are good at treating just about anything.

Check with your local ER to see if they can refer you to an Urgent care. And they might have other places for psych care.

But always, if its getting out of hand you have to protect your safety by going to the ER. Know your limits. Take care.
Sandy

Post Edited (Trying to Understand) : 10/9/2010 5:16:52 PM (GMT-6)

HARA, SADLY MENTAL HEALTH IS ALSO AT THE BOTTOM OF THE TREE HERE. TOTALLY AND UTTERLY SUCKS!!! HOPING YOU FEEL BETTER SOON. HERE FOR YA. MY E-MAIL IS ALWAYS open IF YOU WOULD LIKE A CHAT. JAMIE.