Many adults dont belive that a child or teen can be depressed, but im an example that this stament is wrong. Im an 18 year old girl battling with the worst thing ever.
It started out when i was a child my dad moved away , the man i always looked up to , who i loved more than anything in this world, the man i tried to impress the most. My dad was battling with depression while he was here in nova scotia , canada . I didnt know he was dealing with it but he later explained it to me when i was a bit older to understand. He was depressed beacuse he couldnt get a job or find one after being layed off at his job as a finical adviser.
When my dad moved i was so sad and upset but i still thought there was hope. Then he meet denise my step mom and they where happy and i saw how happy living away made him and thats what i wanted for him but not me. I gradually became sadder and sadder and started skipping school. Then i found out my best friend was moving and she moved and i lost another person. and then skipping school turned out to not going to school.
while all this stuff was going on my mother was with and married a man named Michael , i didnt like him very much beacuse he wasnt my dad and beacuse i didnt want to be let down again by yet another person. I started to like mike and then it turned into love, I didnt show it to him beacuse i thought someway my dad would find out and my dad would be sad that i loved someone like a father that wasnt him. Mike and my mom started fighting because my mother became depressed beacuse her grandmother died which was basically her mom , beacuse as a child my mom was raped and beaten by the men my grandmother her mother brought home and her dad got her out of that and my grandmother helped raise her. Even though my grand mother did some bad things we still love her , now that she is gone also . Because we didnt realize she had gone through the same things. Im glad my grand dad and great grandmother steped in or i wouldnt be rasied the way i was.
Anyways the fighting slowed down after a while untill march 17th when me and my papa got in a fight because he thought i stole money ( WHICH I DIDNT) and i just cried and my mom cried and thats when they desicded there relationship was over. I was hurt but i knew my mom wasnt happy and wanted her to be happy so i accepted her decision. For 3 months we got along and everything was fine , untill my dad met his GIRLFRIEND im not saying that beacuse i hate her im saying it beacuse that was she is, she is an ex con , left her kids with all there grandpartent, woman . she is rude and disrespectful . He chose her over me and my sister who was living with him.
and thats when it all started up again i was always a bit depressed but the feeling of someone else leaving me just broke me again.
Im tired of being left i dont know what is wrong, im on anti depressents but i dont know if i can get better beacuse they just help the chemical inbalance, not the heart ach not the lonelyness . and worst of all noone understand why , why im depressed .
to them id like the to be left 3 times by your best friends/parents, and see how they feel.
Im happy sometimes but most the time i wasnt to just smash things , i just wanna let my anger out on something.
recently my anger has been about
my mom trying to get me to accept that her and her bf want to move into a house together. My parents havent even been split up for a year , and shes thinking about
this, doesnt she understand i dont wnant another man in my life like that , another man that can just leave me.
im tired of all of this i just want the ach and pain to go away , i want my life back , i want to be the girl that got up at 6 am to do her hair and makeup for school, i want to be happy , i want my papa n mom to get along, i want him to give up his hoe bag, but thos are wants, some needs but im afarid , of that it wont happen .
so thats my story and letting you know it does happen to teens. and it does hurt us if not more then as much.
Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 12/21/2010 7:32:13 AM (GMT-7)