Dont under stand my emotions

Hi I live in Missouri and found myself utterly lost, I cant understand my emotions, I have been with my wife for 4 years and we been together for 7 this part is typical a story love was a blessing to find and have she has saved me from myself several times in are relationship, and I have for the past 2 years I been so unhappy with my relationship I tried to understand this but there is no reason she has never done anything wrong to me never lied, cheated well she never gave up on me, I felt so unhappy with are relationship and my life including work, what I for the past 2 months I been talking to another woman she has made me happy again so I thought, tell I found myself in a deep relationship with her and still with my wife, I have thought maybe if I had a reason for my wife to hate me and leave, I would not have to drag her down in my lost self, so I did I cheated on my wife while she was out of town and told her when she got back and showed her the hickeys that was left on me, madness broke out but, she has found some way to still love me and wants to help me I do love my wife but I do also have feeling for the other girl still too and the other girl is in love with me, I love my wife and would want are life to go back to the beginning, I lost her trust and so on "understandable", but I still cant stop thinking of the other girl, the unhappiness I am still feeling, and mow I am breaking another girls heart, I dont know what to do what to feel how to fix my twisted, unhappy, lost thoughts, would like someones thoughts on why would I feel this.



What we think, or what we know, or what we believe is, in the end, of little consequence. The only consequence is what we do.

Hi there,

In my mind, I think counseling would be good for you. You need to sort this out, figure out how you feel about who, and go from there. You most likely can't have both, though you have succeeded thus far. In some instances, the wife tolerates it and the two even become friends. But I don't know that it will happen for you. You have to be honest with people. I don't understand the method which you used to try to break up with her. In my eyes, it was kind of decieptful (sp). But it seems that you can't tell her face to face. Or maybe you just wanted to see how far you could go. I don't know. Only you know that.

I would check out counseling. That would give you guidance with sorting out your feelings so you know what it is that you really want. You shouldn't hurt people, and somebody might get hurt here. Honesty is always the best. And helps you to live the life that you are meant to live.

Best wishes

Hugs, Karen