Posted 3/16/2011 10:56 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Cass,
Thanks for thinking of me. You're so sweet. :)
I have been doing better lately. Learning a lot about myself. A friend challenged me that perhaps, by my choices, I was creating/contributing to some of my own crises. I've been realizing that he's not wrong.
I've been good so far at going no-contact with my family -- 6 weeks and counting! People say I seem more stable & pulled together than I have been for a long time. It was hard to see when I was in the thick of it, but I would react just like my mother in that something would go wrong, I'd panic and, like a tornado, just start tearing up everything around me. Then I'd get upset that everything was all torn up. We weren't very good for each other as we'd both add to that craziness in each other. I'm glad I made the decision to cut off contact & I'm grateful for the support of you all.
So I've been working on living a quiet life -- which isn't always easy, but neither is it as difficult as I expected. Surrounding myself with peaceful people & good thoughts. I'm really grateful b/c I'm feeling closer to God & people than I have in quite some time.
It's not all peachy. Still dealing with the financial fall-out & looking for a job. Hoping that things will work out, but I'm seeing them do so more and more as I practice patience.
I've been praying for you & your family. I hope & pray you are able to find some measure of peace amidst the storms of life, too. You definitely deserve it. Let me know how your doing. :)
peace,
T