I use to be religious, go to church every sunday. I use to laugh and have fun, but my spirit is broken and I am no longer the person I use to be. Everynight before I go to bed now I hurt myself! NOT PHSYICALLY but emotionally and spiritually. I've just moved to a new place a year ago, thats how fast I have changed. Everynight before I go to bed, I go online with my webcam. Entering these chatrooms where I show my body to older men. Also I go to this place where i hook up with older men and have sex with them. It has become an addiction and I want it to end. I don't want to go to bed anymore, begining to fall asleep feeling like I am worthless, feeling like that nobody will love me, that I will become this creature that only craves for the dark lust of sex instead of the enjoyfulness of a partnership. I need help to get rid of this dark soul that has a hold of me, and i need to be myself again, instead of beating myself up again, thinking i am a horrible person.